(This was in response to her sharing a need to pivot and redefine herself from doing her sacred work. She had stopped writing her newsletter, but felt moved to write to us randomly. So I wrote back!)
Hi dearest Sandra,
Thank you for writing so honestly! Two things come to mind immediately. As you may remember, I’m a bit of a channel/mystic (also still “possessed” by a loving daemon – which is a soul retrieval, but never mind).
I write. A lot- About life from my DF perspective. (I’m pretty sure I’m a channel for Gaia/ Snake G-ddess, at least on some days…). DF doesn’t “do”, she listens, absorbs, organizes, parses, imagines, etc. She is the source of all inspirations. I wrote a couple dozen essays on my “possession” experience, and another 250 on the how we can heal our waveforms after being immersed in “his” world for so long.
I used to be a physician – now I realize it was all codependency and ‘outsourcing’. Medicines are placebo – all of them. When the Shaman/medicine man/ witch doctor asks for help (for someone else), PLANT gives it to him/her. As probabilistic electron clouds, which we are as fixed waveforms, we are the resultant energy of the universe on us (AKA astrology). While it may orchestrate, our language programs our outcomes. We are exquisitely sensitive to words and voices. (In honor of last year of the SNAKE, I wrote the following: https://drjenwyman-clemons.com/2025/01/24/an-analysis-of-soma-self-that-part-of-us-that-holds-us-together/
We haven’t learned otherwise to trust our inner compass or become Shaman ourselves, until now. This is a manifestation of the patriarchy – as it shuts DF out. (and off, whenever possible).
When we last touched paths, we were both very burdened- both of us had oodles of “tools” hanging off of us. The tools each need attention and care – and while they may do one or two things very well, we’re relying on them – when really it’s our intention that drives our results and successes. Tools help us to focus intention. But then I had so many – some were redundant; and I didn’t don’t need all my extra weight. (I asked G-d to “right size” me instead of trying to achieve any external parameter of perfection.
Still I (too) have a huge “Indian” (indigenous entity) sitting in my living room. So how to lighten up is and has been a challenge! Visiting the Northern lights in Alaska was really helpful (they’re like my soul tribe). I nearly swoon every time I see them.
Here are a couple of essays about alternative approach to uplifting people – rather than sending them into more boxes and sit downs – like going to schools, hospitals or church establishments which keep us in “awkward position” (this is “chair pose” in yoga), reduced in height, and stifled listening to a being in front of us – who knows nothing of our actually root self, conditions, or opportunities.
Then there are the report cards – which serve to crush forming egos – meaning our true I_AM self, as we are growing out of, but still rooted to our IAM (heart center; YAM in Sanskrit is its bijj or seed sound) self. There’s another one about how soma, until now, has been programmed – in utero.
Here’s one about an alternative vision of education: https://drjenwyman-clemons.com/2025/04/25/summary-of-souk-school-and-collective-its-value-and-blessings/
(Souk is shares the Sanskrit root for ‘suc’ – success and lasting sweetness.)
All the things our five-year-old liked to do, I used to love to skip. Maybe since I’m a Pisces I like to be untethered- it’s my ‘job’ or “dharma” to have a spiritual approach.
AT 68 I can’t skip very well, Still, I dance several times a week in online classes – ballet is all that I can manage; everything else is way too percussive. It’s time for gentle weight-bearing.
Living in a martial patriarchal world, we have come to embody warriors- even ballet is a surrogate. As a culture, we listen to load ear-splitting and throbbing percussive music. We are surrounded by garish heightened color such that it takes a while to appreciate the purity of petals, let alone green in a blade of grass. We need to move more like candles buffeted by slight breezes. And be able to hear quiet things. As a doc, I’d recommend less drumming and more piano! (We have very similar hobbies!)
I’m so happy for you! Focus on your freedom- you’ll lighten and feel better. You might like my Juneteenth essay; it’s pretty out there, but that’s me doing my thing. I got a lot of “likes” for it. https://drjenwyman-clemons.com/2023/06/19/zayin-and-happy-juneteenth/
I hope you get a chance to take a peek at least one. Maybe they will aid you in your newish direction. They aren’t very short at all!
Blessings and Ease!
Love, Jen
