(Editing 12/26/25)
In a dream I had this morning, Lamed with Saturn’s ‘spirit’ was written in black on a large white piece of posterboard.
Centered In a 80 point font was printed an ‘L’ next to Lamed’s glyph. ל – the latter is~ Vau/Vav ו , with a twitching tail- (which corpus Qoph manifests ק.
My son placed it there – on and blocking the right side of the stairs.
To go up, I’d ‘have to’ ‘get to’ touch it to remove, or go around – take a longer path to get to my upper resting area). In other words, his ‘laws’ are blocking me. (In astrology, Saturn represents our ‘ruler’ or ‘boss’ – the one we have to/ get to please in order to become more like him.)
He put the placard on the third step[1] – at about knee level; by its placement you had to go around. He didn’t impede the one descending – but he’d have to wait for the one coming up to ‘clear’ it, before being able to pass.
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[On poster board, Lamed’s ‘path’ exists amongst the oblivion of white background; not 2D flimsy paper, but can stand on its own.
To our experience, what happens can seem as if emanating from nothingness- the middle of a blank space. The truth is, it isn’t. Nothing happens without oodles of “reasons” behind it. Furthermore, adhering to (men’s) laws, we won’t actually ascend until we either lift them up and toss, or temporarily set aside.
With each decision to speak further, we hone our path. “Heeling” to that which is sweet to your inner heart – clarifies what’s resonate. Your words are bound to soften. Deepen pauses add an extra breath as your conversations continue- once you remember to.
And It’s great to journal a little every day. With L first, pat yourself for ‘chores’ you did in your 3D world of labyrinth- add status updates next. (Of course, from G-d’s perspective, reading from the right because He doesn’t have moon’s focal point, His perspective isn’t flipped. It is just the opposite. With G-d’s words, we create our reputations – what people think of us then and later; sometimes they’re so preconditioned you’re ‘just’ fulfilling a stereotype.)
G-d’s uses Her symbols to reach us as our dream teacher. Just like Gematria, shapes suggestive of nouns – combinations of letters forming words’ linguistics are tangentially related. Vowels describe a condition shaped by vessel of consonants. Words communicate temporal urgency, descriptive and onomatopoeic qualities in their transmissions.
Either way, I must consider his picture’s placement whether I go around or replace.
And it’s his picture, not mine. I might have put Shin which symbol reaches upwards.
If I’m feeling pissed off or frustrated, I might even kick it off – it’s really lightweight even if it takes up space.
(I can sooo sometimes be like that!- Especially if I’m already loaded down by words I must not utter. In other words, all bottled up – then kicking is a release.)
It is posterboard after all – even though it has ‘holy script’ on it.
He can always rewrite it. And it can be recycled or incorporated. It isn’t sacred itself – other than that he’d ‘touched it’ in some way.
[Maybe it’s a good idea to put a placard about eye level on ½ a 3×5 card with both symbols as you go upstairs to remind you to watch your step!]
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But before any of that I needed to clean up a mess my cat made. Violet, my exceptionally pretty but also skittish cat, had peed and left a sizeable spot on the carpet.
This needed my prompt attention- with me going into the kitchen or bathroom- but not upstairs for now.
Just like a cat to do – to go wherever when their bladder is irritated or overfilled- from core feelings held back and not expressed. And, unlike marking, when they intentionally squirt their foul secretions against a wall or corner- soiling whatever happens to be passively standing, this was in the edge of the carpet – staining the carpet’s fibers with amines.
To do that, my intention was to get a towel to blot with, spray with dilution formula, and reblot with fresh towel.
(When hot or chastising words (like a torrent of urine) are intentionally or inadvertently released, bring in a impassionate third party to mediate restorations (the dry towel).
As a witness, let them absorb ‘whatever urine hasn’t been taken up by the carpet’. Do damage control. Banish the ‘cat’ mindlessly spirited being, from that ‘room’- otherwise they’re likely to repeat their unloading. Don’t share that part of yourself with that being any more. (You’ll need another ‘audience’)
Then ‘flip to new side’ before ‘blotting’ – touching the ‘ground’ that was sullied (the one on whom the words landed) with a light dabbing pressure (bring them back into 3D). Use another ‘clean towel’ for that.
Give clean ‘towel’ could be tool and trowel – more opportunities to apply oneself usefully.
And by adding a ‘touch’ to the sullied area, do reiki.
Then ‘flood with water’. Express clarified emotions; repeat the latter with another towel.
-You need a few witnesses to have this be most effective; don’t worry if you think your ‘therapy’ is ‘going nowhere’- you’re gaining your inner community of speaking helpers.
From Lamed:
“L” is Vau/Vav with a shadow from the left – as written on paper. (It’s to Vau/Vav’s right if you were ‘Vav/Vau’ itself).
‘Shadow’ is our projection excluded in outline against a flat surface- a 2 dimensional plane – Sha- is a pun-like expression of and from us.
When we or another articulated with mouth or body to shame us of a time when we acted on a stage dishonoring our divine inner self. Sha is shared to an audience witnessing. we’ve forgotten – only our or another’s role remains makes us wince and cringe. Call it a fear body as entity in an space tethered by a focused mind.
On it a shape of our being appears dark relative to the background. In reality our being is illuminated.
(Compare that to a being in black in a dark room – then they seem black velvet. We associate with ninja murderers, even if they’re assassins-working for someone else, they’re still killing.)
Is from both Vau/Vav’s choice and pre-conditioning. It gives us a force of bias about what is truth and not. As we mature, we find all assumptions are wrong – but for other reasons than we expected.
Once we learn to find the gold amongst the threads, we’ll weave well with both creating tangible objects of beauty and craft – as well as everything else.
(Think of our ‘shadow’ as what we don’t and didn’t see- and continue to add to when our Vau/Vav’s self is diva – acting divine– believes it can’t be improved – stuck in a groove.
Avid too – which diva is spelled backwards – to have a stereotyped audience response based on our (performance) bee-leafs and beliefs -ways our ancestors made themselves useful for family collective and ‘hive’ that it be fruitful. “From the right” is what we’ve called to us – by our naming and learned language(s).
Lamed, and by extension Saturn, are ‘the most important’ letters and signs for our creator G-d self. Our Saturn is our being with density. Saturn spends about 2 ½ years per sign. So in 12 years of schooling we’ll know or have experienced members from about 10+ signs. Not all 12. While we might have learned about the Saturn beings for 5 signs forwards and back – not the one directly opposite ~14 years older or younger than us with Saturn’s 28.6 year cycle.
When we follow our dharma’s path, we create Saturn’s correct manifestation.
By extension, aspects to this planet, its placement – and the cusp of house he rules are clues to our G-d-given strengths and talents.
