Four G-ddesses

I just finished “Faces of four G-ddesses” course co-hosted by Heather Ensworth and Kelly Kolodney.

This was a review of forces and power of Egyptian G-ddesses  Sekmet, the fierce lion-headed G-ddess and death mother, Isis – representing the power of nurturing mother, Lilith “wild” woman who was “banished from the garden of Eden because She ‘refused’ (and re-fused – got Her own wick back–now just needs to be lit) to submit to Adam, and “rainbow wo(e)-man “ portal and bridge for creation -Innana.

I’m going to touch on aspects I initially recalled along with what I channeled as a result. Contemporaneous synchronicities I put into brackets. I hope it’s not too confusing.

Every single aspect of the Divine Feminine, “She”, “Her”, etc applies to male hu(e)-mans too! But as corporeal beings, we are all Her vessels. Of the thousand or so participants – there were few, if any men. That’s a real shame!

These goddesses have other names in Greek and Roman mythology. She placed the G-ddesses on each corner of the indigenous medicine wheel and assigned them to the directions. It was a great set of interpretations.

The north south polarity was consciousness – representing air and fire – Isis and Sekmet; the east west polarity – relationship with self Innana and Lilith.

All four were integrated into Ma’at who stood at the center.

Heather’s portion was really well organized and reflected her assiduous attention to details as well as lineage of her formal seminary training. It was based on tomes written by men in most cases.

(I think of tomes as tombs –because they are shaped like caskets when laid with ends facing center. Standing on their edges, they’re magical beings. Touched by G-d’s hands they are leaves of light.

At the same time, each time you read one, a little part of you dies – you are informed by another’s answer- because you don’t believe you already know it. You/we needed confirmation, we didn’t trust. But I digress…)

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First we met Sekmet – lion-headed G-ddess of Truth and Justice. She was assigned the title of “death mother”. Sekmet stands in Karnac temple with left foot extended. She steps in Her heart’s alignment. Hers is the spirit of truth – belied by her fierce gaze. Her foveas are on fire. She’s our heart and soul of visionary. She holds what looks to be a giant tack in Her left hand.

We meet Sekmet when our boundaries are over extended. “Call on Her whenever in a healing crisis”. (She embodies Archangel Michael’s energy.)

I met Her once – when I spoke to him, my Love Daemon man – and recounted our Reiki encounter and repeated what he said to me. It was the fiercest I’d ever been – and yet it didn’t feel like anger at the time. At least not how I’d known anger before. I wasn’t shaking with rage.

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Heather reviewed the myth of Isis and Osiris as being original kings and queen of Egypt. Together they brought flourishing to the Egyptian peoples by ‘harnessing the waters of Nile’ for irrigation and agriculture. (They usefully applied the continuously available energy of otherwise undirected/chaotic passion and emotions, the Nile). Taught weaving and agriculture- bringing their people into communities.

(Isis, I’d met as a creator G-ddess in my Modern Mystery school, previously Rocky Mountain Mystery school. At one of their temples, we chanted for Isis to come back into the world.

That was when reports of ISIS, the Islamic “terrorist” group, was thick in our media. I put quotes around words that need reformulating re -clarifying.

I see” terrorist” groups as engaged about their terroir –motivated by their daily existence which feels suck and angry. Terroir-ists want change; they want land to roar to life.

To gain them though they may use f’ear and violence to fight their “oppressors” -giving little thought to those around them- and hurting innocents in the process. That’s also their ‘job’ – to wake bystanders up.

Some grow grapes and serve wine so they can discuss painful topics more lightly- and gain camaraderie.

So, the school’s works are quite successful! I hope they do more like it.)

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While Josephine McCarthy, author of many books about becoming a sacred initiate, admonishes against arousing ‘retired’ deities like Isis, be reassured, if Isis is being called into service, ruthless in Her quest for Osiris, She’ll rise all by Herself. Which She has -by any means possible! She wants to hear ‘Is Is ‘– over and again!

But her quest wasn’t for Her – it was for someone else- Osiris. To fix Him so She could have Him wholly unto Herself.

She quested for Him – Os-iris. She doesn’t play like Lilith. She spends Her energies seeking and nursing.

Isis flew and flew to all the places Seth had strewn them after hacking his brother to bits. Isis tried to find all 14 pieces. She found all but one. (She gave up in the end. There was always that “last” place – She didn’t look there.)

Instead, She fashioned the last piece with Her beating wings and brought Him to life.

But even then, She couldn’t keep Him. Osiris left and became Pluto of the underworld.

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(Now you may say She failed but here’s the thing, With Her aerial adventure, Isis got to check out all those cool places and see new landscapes. She could have ‘resettled’ but didn’t.

She never learned to say “yes, yes” to anyone else – but could have – if she’d been Innana rainbow woman.)

(Here’s a brief channeled analysis of “Os iris”, Os is mouth in Latin, submission in Japanese- we say “Os” with long O, to the dojo master.

With our mouths we eat and express emotions. With our lips we are moved to speak – articulating with intonations. Lips are tactilely stimulated by enunciation, feeding, and drinking substances–and yes, even touching penises and vaginas! And kissing.  

This creates warmth and blood flow in our face.

Flow comes in and goes out with our breath. Os is both inhaling and exhaling.

Without Os, no exchange or opening is possible. Os_iris is He who eats and speaks to whatever his eyes reflect- but not necessarily what his body needs. Irises reflect while they expand and contract. Retinas see soma’s needs and wants.)

Osiris is Isis’s great lover, that’s His value- to Her. Of course He’s much more to ‘everyone else’.

Reflecting Her light in His iris’s, He’s Her vision of L’Ove – all that she needs for Her being of formation. (As She is for Him)

Os-iris keeps Her literally grounded- when they’re together coupling.)

Osiris was a big part of Heather’s story along with his dismemberment- His 14 parts Isis collected restored all but one piece which She fashioned Herself -and negated Her rescue.

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[Isis myths need become embodied in hu(e)-mans – even daily corporeal practices – lovingly honoring your body.

AS a collective of hu(e)-manity, we’ve got the ‘Osiris’ energies down pat.]

(l’Ove is our ‘field’ made of entity standing waves. These are the support for our lineage’s dreams and hopes to be built upon.  Dreams come in and land in their way.

From Orphic egg, we hatch. We gain thicker skin and fuller feathers (or fur) – the follicles are all present at birth. We spread our limbs. We learn to flap them.

We are meant to walk, swim, or fly- somewhere by any and all means possible.  

Only your heart knows. To gain new perspectives and experiences- go look at a globe. Honor your dreams, inklings, and instincts.

And for those on the move all the time, try settling down with your inner Os iris.)

[As an aside, pain is a sign that our creator G-d self is off-line in our daily existence.  

For a jump start on healing, AKA heeling, the Modern Mystery school did and does continue to have regular “Egyptian temple” sessions to my knowledge. We did some really neat stuff there. I highly recommend it along with tantric yoga practices. You can do them on yourself too.]

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Next in the wheel turning clockwise, was Lilith assigned to guardian of the west. (W(e)-est. She has no boundaries; She isn’t kept.

She is representative of “wild” woman- which I am (not). AT least until now.

According to tomes, Lilith is rebellious, untamed, unprincipled, uncontrollable, and ~filthy for Her sexual pleasure(s). These descriptors anyway are hallmarks of what our western world thinks of as “wild”.  

Astrologically, Lilith is the apogee of the moon’s orbit. That is – as far away as the moon gets from Her earth’s roots in this plane of lifetime.

(“Filth”, fil(l)-th, is overflowing with eye-ugly waveforms. Over-filled. Add a Y (Yod and Ayin) and it’s measurably. Lilith gains opportunistically.

Eden couldn’t contain Her; nor would that describe Her. She didn’t l’Ove Adam; She wasn’t/isn’t responsible for His l’Ove. Our Lilith is meant to go on to bigger and better things.

She’s not that of us that does cultivating – that’s Saturn’s/ Isis’s ‘job’; Lilith instigates our dharma path. Keeps eyes wide open for the things She l’Oves. The ‘extra’ that no one will notice missing – which is someone else’s pollution.

Lilith tangibly expresses the spirit of our l’Ove being as our most evolved creator self while in manifestation. As she is of our moon self– G-d’s reflection of our sun fractal, our Lilith ‘point’ astrologically is most distant from Earth -our roots.

You could fairly assign Lilith to be essence of our successful MC- reputation.

Lili-(e)-th, is like a lily. She’s pure “me, me, me”.

With Lilith there is no other.

Lilith is Gaia’s entity of being that is self-named- as we embody our G-d’s mission of self to further.

To be sustainable in the 3D world – tangible plane of existence, Lilith’s placement is aligned with what gives us joy and inner excitement in the most positive way you can feel.

Even though ‘banished’ from angelic protected space, as Lilith is Adam’s equal, She doesn’t need it or Him when purely focused on having Her way.

Lilith does needs fuel and oxygen – which She can get freely on primordial Gaia- but She roams to find it. She makes Her own water with tears, saliva, and urine. This is evidence for Her receipt of sustenance and feelings. Her realm is not the Garden – which results from cultivator Isis.

With Lilith’s H at the end, she’s got hidden talents which invite opportunities for her.

Lilith’s eviction and replacement with Eden’s docility is a story written by patriarchy. And yet, that works too – Eve is our undercover self. The one who learns and anticipates. We need Her too.

Please know, the creation myth is backwards – the Divine Feminine birthed Eve/Lilith. Then with the help of SNAKE’s ribs, created Adam, But that’s a big story for another day.)

As it turns out, (and this is also my mystic linguistic interpretation) “wild” can be thought of as “whiled” and “willed” – just add Heh’s opportunity for multi-tasking and change for the former; willed is actions initiated by oneself with long I and extra “l” in the latter.

Willing, one becomes a creator of their own labyrinth.

Lilith uses time as She pleases. She isn’t fettered to any man – or hu(e)-man’s agenda. She is Her own being. She expresses Her will to create and live for Herself.

(I took the course and wrote this essay exactly as Saturn was conjunct my asteroid Lilith at 1 degrees Aries. Saturn rules my third house of ‘early education’, communications, ‘newspaper articles’- and ‘guide’ (rule by disposition) both Mars and Venus. Astrology is often literal too.)

As hu(e)-man, She is a creator G-d – with or without Him (=aka ‘hymn’ – having a name or song imposed by someone else externally).

Her energy isn’t sung by others into being – it emerges from within Her according to Her surroundings.

Lilith is our ultimate jihad being; our corpus will never let up its ways to express her – even while lying on Her deathbed, She’ll disturb your air with Her death rattle.

Lilith as a G-ddess spirit is least accessible for me, until now-even though She is placed in my zodiacal fifth house of romance, fun, children, and pleasure.)

Heather’s view was in alignment with her tomes. She spent some of the session talking about how Lilith held the thread at the gates of the Underworld…,while Innana descends to retrieve Her lost soul sister Ereshkigal-with her handmaiden Ninshevar.

By staying at the middle world’s gates and not leaving for any trips to the netherworlds, Lilith doesn’t concern Herself with De’ath (what’s coming for all of us at some point), L’oss (the ways of elders), f’ears (listening for specific negative feelings), dark or hidden places.

So, if you’re frequently going there suffering dark nights of the soul, you aren’t embodying your Lilith!

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Innana is the Sumerian name for Venus and is queen of heaven.

In Heather’s teaching, She is given the East direction and represents the element of earth. (East is ‘est’ in French, and means “to be” in Latin.)

Innana’s our spirit of entity and visible, measurable ‘awe’ of our being.

Starting with ‘I’, Innana is Yod’s ‘hand of G-d’ self.

Our hands are made for our work – and using our fingers, our hands are made with our ~ideal properties of Mercury’s language and flexibility, Venus’s attraction and beauty, Mars’s passions, wants and desires, Jupiter’s generous mercy and grandiosity, and Saturn’s DNA blueprint.)

[I’ve always had a “writer’s tubercle” on my right middle finger- even when I was in first grade- before I ever really even wrote. The nature of our handiwork is described by our third house cusp and Mercury’s placement.]

(Yod, hand of G-d, touches one first with one of His fingers. Which one you’ll not guess but find out for yourself. (Hint -that which gives you the biggest pleasure in life. Pleasure sensations come when the hands work together to create tangibly.)

Yes, there is a palm, but hands deliver nimble dexterity with time and practice. Watch granny doing what she does!)

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Ereshkigal, Innana’s grain G-ddess sister- (Gr. Ceres) choses to be in the underworld (unlike Persephone who, oops, got caught, raped, and imprisoned – another tome story with additional meanings.)

With bread we create ki or chi, our breath energy which is carried by the blood. Warmth enlivens our movements.

With Ereshkigal, there’s both Aleph’s consistency and resilience and Ayin’s kingliness. Wheat stands tall and golden- when sunlight is upon it.)

In this story though, Ereshkigal sits in a womb chamber with view of darkness. Sitting in Her cold dungeon, She is congealed.

She traveled to the underworld- and decided She liked it:  hu(e)-mans don’t honor Her anymore. Without spring, the lands are barren which is why Innana desperately wants to rescue Her.

Ereshkigal’s a ‘girl that doesn’t want to share Her gifts’ from the sun. She is surrounded by comforting heaviness and substance in a place of chill and no light.

She’s angry that defenseless Innana comes for Her. So kills her – and hangs Her on (Tzadi’s) hook to show all the underworld’s denizens.

Luckily following the thread which Innana left behind, Innana is rescued by Enke with holy food and water; finally Ereshkigal agrees to return annually after receiving propitiation for releasing Innana. Innana offers Her husband who didn’t mourn Her loss.

Spring happens again. The land reblooms.

 (It’s a great story.  I’m not doing it justice. Go check it out!)

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[Venus is just now, along with Saturn/ Neptune conjunction at 0 Aries, coming on line as evening star. She’s reappearing after being in cahoots with the sun – so unseen as either morning or evening star, while She realigns Her priorities with sun’s light. which is why we can’t see her. Unlike Mars, free of earth’s orbit, Venus (and Mercury) stay closer to the sun.

Synchronistically, this teaching was very timely for me.

Once again, I tried to reconnect with my ~estranged sister – who is an antique dealer. In her daily life she is surrounded by substances from people that have transitioned.

She talks about l’Ove and light all the time, but however it is, we clash.

In a text, she wrote I’m still the “cause” of her sad and painful memories (her words), but she will ‘appeal to G-d’ to help her come to terms with her wronged past… because I was so “angry” and hurtful (for my humor) at the time when I was a preteen and early teenager.

My response was for her to “rejoice she was free to find her own passion” with me not taking up all the collective’s anger airwaves (and wounding her sense of IAM/I_AM.

Anger is another manifestation of passion- when passions are suppressed or denied.

Since all is projection, like her, I surround myself with books, sentimental things and old letters. I don’t get out much. I pray to Him too all the time to help me come to terms with my Love Angel/Daemon. I don’t anger as easily, but can still get pretty riled on a dime.

I need to try Her method of medicine – dancing naked with the full moon and then jumping into the surf. Someday. (There is nothing quite like going skinny dipping!) But honestly the idea of jumping in cold water has very little appeal even if it would be exhilarating.

I offered that she could return or destroy objects of me which I’d given her- and trigger for her recent revelation- specifically some embroidery I’d made and gifted to her which she’d made into a skirt. She declined. Now it’s time for me to take my own advice!]

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In our class, we completed the circle, then returned to Sekmet to burn away anything no longer serving, before stepping into the middle of the medicine wheel where Ma’at sits.

Ma’at synthesizes life using Her G-ddesses in each direction; She’s the still point in balance. (Ma’at is our resultant orthogonal vector of being rising from the medicine wheel- and She’s source which separates into directional components.)

The center radiates light that’s a higher octave of gold, violet, and a special green (probably a version of chartreuse.

Ma’at lives in the heart. I saw Her as vibrantly radiating in all (spherical) directions.

Ma’at is the author of 42 principles worth following – which include the Ten Commandments.

(I haven’t read them yet; I’m re-working the Jewish 613 does-and-don’ts Mitzvahs.)

(G-ddesses in multiplicity are diffraction from wholeness- just like the Hindu G-ds and G-ddesses. Consider them bite-sized qualities. At the same time, each is a fractalized version of Ma’at’s whole.

While in theory it’s nice to think each direction as equally important, Initially that isn’t the case. We all start out somewhere – perfect each one, ~move on – hopefully taking lessons with us until we make the complete circuit, then go to the center – synthesize and level up.

This happens several times as we go through life. Picking up this; releasing that. We gain lightness in our form.)

Ma’at wears the ostrich feather- the Egyptian hieroglyph for truth. Our heart is weighed against her feather at the time of our transition- or so it is said.

If our heart is heavy with karma and tips Her scales, then we’re thrown back to the Nile with its crocodiles and go for another incarnation via the Underworld. If lighter, our spirit becomes immortal.

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On the last day of the Faces of the Four G-ddesses course, Kelly Kolodney did her other–worldly channeling. Her intention was to start with Isis – then see who shows up. I jotted down occasional notes which I’m working off of; please forgive my abbreviations and lapses.

It was rich – and a ~completely different take on the G-ddesses but it was very helpful to have Heather’s background!

She didn’t mention Innana or Ereshkigal but referred to Nu’ut and Geb.

From Kelly’s words:

‘The world of Gaia’s medicine wheel was poured out by Nu’ut – who pours the Holy primordial waters of the universe. As Aquarian water bearer She creates the potential for corporeal existence. With Geb, the medicine wheel comes into form.’

(Geb is the force and power of creation. Geb, short for Gebvurah- Kabbalah’s Sephira of form/tzimtzum with intention; Geb is ~consolidated with gab- words, that is.)

‘The medicine wheel is actually a 2D representation of a 3D construct- the sphere.’ (This is an idea I play with a lot as some of my readers know.)

‘First we met Isis in Egypt. The smell of the (Sahara’s) sands and winds rose around us,’

(Isis read backwards is “si si”- “yes yes” in Spanish.

“Yes, yes” creates by the power of positive approach. This is our coaching self. When we train our attention onto another’s nescient works that they become further educed and healed (heeling to their inner Lilith to become whole).

‘Isis sits on a throne with stone steps ascending to it. She is a radiant being surrounded by geometric structures. Geometries, (as Platonic solids) are mentioned several times. With her we merged after She enveloped us.

Her huge wings brought us aloft.’

(She harnesses the spirits of Air, (the Sylphs)– to bring Her anywhere She wishes or feels called.)

We/I could feel Her magnificence radiating as we are borne with Her.

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 ‘Then we meet Lilith. She was standing in an abundant garden with marvelous plants. They grow with Her touch. She is naked aside from a black shift; She wears no adornments.’

(Black means ‘invisible’ and ‘unseen’- no light radiates out – except from Her face, fingers, and toes. As a free being, her ‘clothes’ indicative of status, are undefined/ not known.)

‘At Lilith’s feet were SNAKEs all around. They slither up to create Her form.

As we merged with Her too, SNAKE ascended from our feet to wind up towards our third eye; they fill every molecule of our being’.

[As Ida and Pingala, they poked through my eyes- shining Yod’s shards of creator G-d energy -probably each leading with forked tongue. ]

‘Lilith makes wild creations whenever and wherever She can. She has freedom to choose, to play, and to create with all Her being.’ (including hands not just yoni.)

‘Living waters flow through Her – as She’s 80% water. She l’Oves hydration. Her waters are from primordial Gaia.’

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Then we ‘traveled’ to Karnak to visit Sekmet’s statue.

I too have stood before Her as I have been to Karnak. In Her hand She holds a big tack – like Vav/Vau. (Vau/Vau are also vows we make- with words created from letters of light and fire.)

‘Sekmet is surrounded by ring (sphere) of fiery lions- fierce and loyal to truth. These accompany Her with Her fierce missions. They burn away all our suppressed gunk-(leaving ashes).

[I felt ferocity though nothing like when I sat in front of my L.D, the man!]

We chanted “Sekmet, Sekmet, Sekmet” invoking Her and bringing Her into us..

(A being of fire, She’s also our active mitochondria and Ashim. Her power of truth never dies – it gets reincarnated until it’s released from ashes at peace.)

I have a special kinship with Sekmet. Over the years I’ve had panther, then leopard, white tiger, and finally a large golden lion on my right side (along with or part of my projection of a large angelic being of light); Maybe I realized this on my visit. Long ago I received the message She, as real courage, prefers ‘dry’ like the savanna as in non-intoxicated. I attempt to comply.

(If you’re curious about having special relationship with entities, visit a zoo or museum for ideas. Notice what you’re drawn to.)

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Lastly, Kelly channeled Ma’at- Gaia’s potential of self. Ma’at provides all. Her name is has ‘ma’ in it for this reason.

When whole and balanced in Her expression, miracles happen. She’s the mystery of unformed – rawness as well our final product.

She aches from the way men treat Her, but is infinite Herself.

Kelly channeled specifically Ma’at does not weigh hearts against Her feather! (Maybe that’s a patriarchal ploy to keep everyone humble and effacing – my take.)

Anyway, the course was very valuable and affirming. I recommend it totally although initially I had some resistance. Kelly’s channeling was beautiful. I’m even going to listen to the replay which I don’t often do!

Next up – Resurrection Light Code – starting in March! (I’m still in my healing swaddle fluids from ‘death light codes course’ which is perfect for Lent.

‘Resurrection’ should be fun, Inshallah!