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Venus is our dimensional being of value. Where Venus sits in a chart, along with it’s aspects and harmonies with other planets and those in one’s personal collective, describes’ our tangible and sensual relationships, exchanges, attractions and repulsiveness.

Depending on where it is in a chart these qualities are elicited – as beauty is in the ears and eyes of the one beholding. When our vision of self is distorted we can’t see clearly.

This is an essay in response to a ’22 day Venus reset’ for clearing our inner cauldron of self’ course developed by astrologer Stormie Grace.

For this section we were encouraged to write about relationships, times we were “force” to do something we didn’t “want”. In her course work, which is otherwise excellent, she does a lot of naming which, even without describing them specifically – the words create sensations in soma.

We are each our own source of innovation once placed in a world that resonates and elicits it.

I have Venus in AQ in 3rd house. I like to write – a lot.

As a doctor for almost 30 years, I wrote lots (and lots) of reports about thousands of “patients”- those who (patiently) took the time to tell me their story in a way I could understand and thus be able to serve them -to support their “health”.

When wishing to release what no longer serves – in those moments – we are by definition -wishing for -more. We can’t be doing both experiencing our wholesome ultimate individuality whilst we focus on past in terms of our “wounds”.
Each wound is ~re naming a pun-like derivative of ourselves within the context of a tangible time-related event; what we did or didn’t do or weren’t like. With each wound we are wound into knots; they build on each other like DNA shut down. try twisting a rope until it can’t move- is what we are like as we conform to our stereotypic view of self.

Judgements are based on a verbal 2D rendition of actions described in the language of the observer who’s judging and witnessing (including our reflection in the mirror).

we are experienced through the lens of our “other’s” lineage -within our collective – what our grandmothers told or did to them or someone like to keep our lineage alive. And always while under external duress (by a war, a ‘ruler’, or nature)- trying to avoid an “or else” scenario. (Or else we might be excommunicated and starve, or else we might be lonely, or else no one will take care of us, or else we get labeled and bring shame on the family name, and so forth.)

All of these are lies; there are many exceptions to a “rule” or statement. ‘She’ comes through. Our vessel restores us to our comfort zone even if that means transitioning to a disembodied dimension.

Normally we don’t care how someone outside of our lineage and personal collective judges us. Home is our backup. Those others unlike us in the mirror have never experienced our version of life how could they understand our “choices” (automatic responses generated by our lineage’s reward system).

But if a wave form that doesn’t look like you or your parents, focuses clearly on you as to pass judgement, there’s wisdom in examining it! Even if our judgements are projection, they are still accurate.

Unless someone is an aura reader (which there certainly are), our emotional self -is invisible to the naked eye.

Especially if we’ve learned to “smile” and “keep our spirits up” even when we feel otherwise. We teach the body to lie. And especially if we stand out (are tall) or have light features (easily visible responses) and strong eyes (such as those with a Scorpio rising)

Our aura literally shifts when it is electrified by hormone release. This creates further responsive cytokine flow in response to another’s words, actions, or state of being. Emotions as the physical manifestation of “water flowing”, come from perception of sensory input (feelings) and thoughts. The former receptors are initially inherited.

Even if our vessel of being looks the same after an interaction, it isn’t unless we’re overwhelmed. (That is called “being professional). We get to go home and process before we can re-loosen and rewind.

“water”, when set into motion, is an inexorable force -even if it is used to make cement. (And even cement is leached and weakened by salty water – tears).

Just as adrenaline goads us into action, serotonin relaxes, and oxytocin with dopamine gives us the experience of l’ove. Each sensation is a manifestation of activation of a bunch of nerve clusters being stimulated by our 3D diet of what our orifices receive – including language. Ears have a direct path to the heart.

With repetition, we ‘practice’ and enlarge our receptor population(s)- as body soma wants to be efficient. Likewise, they shrink when not used.

Each verbal use of “blame” and “shame”, for example, is a reminder of times when someone else’s experience of us “fell short”. I had a little feeling of ‘Yuck” each time you said it. even hearing such words – elicits the sensation.

These sensations bring us out of “inner bowl alignment” – and into reliving a sorrow which festers in our heart-and mind. To feel misaligned, we were compared against our demographic norm somehow- from what we ‘should of/ would of/ could of’ done.
what we focus on we get more of. By invoking words that make us feel ‘sad’ keeps those paths and their stories engrained.

And yet, re-living pain, our body still knows it’s alive and ‘moving matter’ (the hormones). Otherwise, we might just be spiritual entity. No wonder some emotions give us strong charge – they’re meant to wake us up.

What if there is really no such thing as a mistake or accident? What if “changes” that happen (another Aquarius word) because it’s their time (Saturn’s word); we need to ‘switch’ tracks. Gaia wants us to move in order to grow despite our collective’s norm- Even when those in our collective perish who “shouldn’t have” and worse, by our hand.
Yes, it was ‘their time’ in every case- “untimely deaths” prove a collective’s individual value – even if they were a pain in the ass. Everyone shows up to the funeral. (That reassures the remainder.)

But before we can go on a new experience of time-line, we need physical experience in order to 1) learn we can get through stuff and with that gain skills and vocabulary. 2) are “forced” to spread our wings a bit but need a particular sort of experience first. All is of our inner gem! 3) will use that experience as part of our grand life’s tapestry – eventually, granted.

As an astrologer I see hu(e)-mans as energetic waveforms embodying (being “orchestrated” by) their astrologic transits given their natal and progressed charts’ inner harmony and action buttons – but individually we are the conductors with our words (and thoughts).

This from one who’s had an “abusive childhood”, PTSD, been a foster child, been “raped”, self-medicated, etc. Sure, my inner garden was “sullied”. But everything heals as we (correctly) reframe it.

And yet, by many parameters of my culture, I’m an individual success story. I (mostly) turned my dross into fertilizer.

And because of public rights and opportunities available to me (and so far only available in the USA) I am and have been able to better myself compared to any of my ancestors.

You might like this essay on “Juneteenth” I wrote on drjenwyman-clemons.com. As a non-death eater holiday, which most otherwise are, Juneteenth is very important!

With freedom we still are cleaved to l’Ove (anything serving our Orphic egg of self -representing our higher purpose for incarnation) and use our attachments as a force for good.

(I have Saturn in the 2nd house- in Sagittarius.)