(A succinct summary of my incredible (‘in -cre-d-i-b-le: received creation of opportunity from spiritual entity of blessing) journey with my spiritually INTRUSIVE but intensely loving, or l’oving, Love Daemon to date in late May 2025).
I describe my spiritual awakening which it’s triggering!
Here’s her response first:
Hi Jennifer,
Wow! Thanks for sharing this. It is so vulnerable and powerful and enlightening and amazing. Yes – share it on your website. It is fascinating! I am honored that you shared it with me. It is such a pleasure to have you in the class.
It is interesting to read about astrology in your message below because I am going to announce on Wed. that my next 3-part workshop will be based on astrology. I don’t have the name yet but it will be a painting of the Cosmos/planets/ constellations/ astrological symbols and I’ve reached out to an astrologer friend to perhaps collaborate with. Maybe you’ve heard of her – Suzanne Gerber
Have a great week and see you soon 😊
Risa
From: Jennifer Wyman-clemons
Subject: Re: Metamorphosis Week 2 Recording
Hi Risa,
I hope you enjoy reading “collectives”.
That you got great news, gives me sparkles too!! Whenever one member of a collective gains – it reflects on all of us who get to share in the occurrence!
I just got a chance to read your poem – I was focused on the drawing and didn’t see it right away. Just daring is SOOO hard. As I mentioned last time we had class, I’ve been in the midst of a spiritual upheaval with soul retrieval from having an experience of “possession”.
When I got “possessed” by my dreamboat guy (on All Saint’s Day 2019, “when the veil between worlds is thinnest”) I had to tell him about it. I did not want to – but of course I did too.
How did this happen? While we were still both in a bit of trance (I had just done Reiki on him) and as he was leaving, he looked into my eyes and said more special words. He’d said a bunch already. Something flew between us like a golden shard. Sure, call it “cupid’s arrow”.
With that, ‘his’ entity entered the bottom of my heart – then went over to my spleen and has since been increasingly prevalent. It mostly radiates upwards- on my left side first, now my right. I can ‘see’ him always, and he often ‘visits’ me.
So, I did dare to dress up and confront him- and more than once sent cards, gifts, and letters. The man, much younger than me, is/ was shocked (and angry); he hasn’t further engaged with me. But, nor will he ‘clarify’ or negate his words.
I have not chased or pursued a man before. lol (Truthfully they always came on to me first- and then I chose!)
(Each interaction is documented in L.D. # 2,3,4, etc). I had written an essay about possession and entities spurred by a dream and subsequent phone call, two years earlier. (L.D. -1)
Call him a ghost – and yet, this spirit entity (angel) is as active now as it was when it started. I’ve been in multiple-times-a-day state of rapture since it started! Even when I’m in your classes.
My latest salvo was for him to circle an answer on a multiple-choice answer of “no” versions, with one “yes”, which he was to return with my enclosed S.A.S.E. (L.D. #16). He ignored it. (I had just matched with someone on Match.comand was trying to clear things up first before I went forward with the person.)
A couple of months before I met him, I had a vision of a man’s face with bright eyes and a beard. Simultaneously I ‘heard’ the words, “Did I want to meet the man of my dreams? Who would love every molecule of my being”, to which I immediately (telepathically) said, “Yes” and, “when I am whole” (or was that “hole” ?).
(There’s much about words and grammar we aren’t aware of – like Gematria links words by their numeric sum, homophones are related too. Vowels carry spirit; consonants direct them; in some cases language has evolved by shortening and leaving out letters that are informative.)
The man in my dreams and the man in reality look very very similar.
I think of this visage, in retrospect, as the dot – or fingertip, of Yod. I don’t/didn’t know which finger it was. (While Yod is the whole hand of G-d; each finger carries a planetary energy). G-d’s palm (Kaph), with wrist and forearm, is always behind it!
For me it felt like a taste of l’ove; so that ‘fingertip’ might be Venus or Jupiter. (Either way, both are unformed forces. Venus is our value; Jupiter is our opportunity.)
The experience forced me to spill my guts (finally).
Lol, I had so many stories to tell after witnessing for so long ~30 years of being a doctor.
Now there’s 220+ essays – including 20 about him (the L.D. series), a dozen or so about the Hebrew Aleph Bet (and they continue to ‘speak’ to me), and the rest on reimagining our social condition. Keeping these published on-line feels daring.
And I did know I was a “messenger” since I was younger than two. Possibly because of mom’s efforts to free herself of pregnancy, I may have had several in utero near-death-experiences. (NDE) Or so said someone who ‘channels our holy family’. She got ‘stuck’ several times when my soul dimmed as she ‘cleared’ my timeline.
Meh, this was what I was made for- mom and dad gave me my back plot.
I knew my parents were really stuck in 3D- for their own reasons both felt cursed. I could not reach them. But they gave me the direction to go in on my quest for truth and justice.
I just didn’t know how or why I’d be able to come clean about the ‘messenger’ part. I knew G-d would provide those specifics- including the time and place.
And did He ever! The specifics of the meeting were downright mystical as I relate in L.D. #1.
My possession happened 3 weeks after my husband of 26 years asked for a divorce, I’d quit my job(s), mom and beloved dog had recently died, and other losses.
For other reasons, I’d emphatically said (out loud) “NFW am I committing myself to anyone or anything” – specifically relating to an event I’d previously scheduled for All Saint’s Day- but canceled.
(Still get goosebumps thinking about this. )
This was not random; Neptune was conjunct my sun – dissolving my beliefs about ‘I AM’, or as I call them bee-leafs how I stayed busy and productive; Pluto was on Mars- transforming (destroying) my “wants” and “not-wants”. That is just a start of how the universe was interacting with my chart during that period of time.
Now I have the Internet to share my stories with. I am attracting some attention – in my passive way, by sharing them in comment sections.
Although my town and high school class had a large Jewish community, as a Goy, I wasn’t invited to or included in any of their religious observations. I only got familiar with Jewish traditions when I had a close MD coworker. We hung out some- even though I was single and she had five children.
Of course, I was secretly fascinated by her culture and how our livelihoods helped us intersect.
(When she got pregnant for the 6th time, her husband, an Orthodox Jew, divorced her for ‘continuing to make babies’. ‘Why didn’t she ask permission from the rabbi to abort it’. For her that wasn’t an option. She was in her early 40s. Ouch!!!)
Putting my camera on is a big step to being in public. It is ~painful for me every time I do it. I tend to do what I don’t want to do, as long as it’s ‘kosher’, so I can grow and expand.
Thank you for reading my epistle!
Jen
PS With the story about HUMMINGBIRD we heard – our hands are barren of sweetness, but spirit is looking for it! May we use our hands to create sweet and supportive fluids -emotionally tangible connections to succor others – which we receive too. All is a gift.
PSS I might publish this letter on my website drjenwyman-clemons.com
From: Risa / Soul Work Sisters <risa@soulworksisters.com>
Sent: Friday, May 30, 2025 4:42 PM
To: ‘Jennifer Wyman-clemons’
Subject: RE: Metamorphosis Week 2 Recording
😊
Shabbat Shalom!
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Hi and thanks so much Risa for everything!
I will check out your Google results for the line drawings.
Your butterfly now sort of goes with what I was ‘seeing’ too!
I am ‘going public’ – which is why I feel called to share intimate stories now. If I can’t share them here, I’ve a looong way to go.
Collective unity is rising.
Congratulations about being cited in the Washington Post! That’s so excellent!!!
Jen
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Hi Jennifer,
Thanks for sharing all of this with me. It’s all very powerful. And very vulnerable to share and it is very meaningful that you trust me with your thoughts.
It is very interesting how you relate your life and your journey, and your inner dreams and visions and how, if you were drugged, it may have caused more disassociation and how that “assistance” would have actually been harmful.
I have attached my notes for the drawing demo that I did. Check out design 1A, where I added the back wing in pink. You can do the same thing to the double-hearted butterfly in design 2.
For a simple drawing of a bird, I googled, “bird line drawing” and then I selected “images.” Check out this screenshot to see your options for images to view, like simple, realistic, outline, etc.
Thanks for sharing your article. I will read it this weekend.
I appreciate your connection to the Jewish people. I just sent out a newsletter a few hours ago. I was quoted in the Washinton Post! I shared the link in the newsletter.
Have a great weekend!
Risa
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Hi Risa,
With the sideways butterflies -are the two hearts on one side of the butterfly? I made mine like you demoed but feel like I’m missing an outline of another superior wing behind the first (bigger) one.
You might have mentioned about putting in another trace of wing – but you didn’t draw that here. I’m getting ready to add one anyway.
Thanks for your breaking it down for us!
Could you direct me where I might find how to draw a bird?
Jen
PS. I’m in a few groups, mostly astrology, and slowly sharing ~essays and ideas (as usual) but each time still feels so scary!
I’ve been an al(l)-oner (and loner) all my life- never let anyone in before. Even though I had thousands of hours of “therapy” ( CBT and psychoanalysis), and worked as a doc for all those years, I kept all my ‘visions’ to myself. And, I drank to suppress them. Until five years ago.
I wonder if butterfly’s ‘jerky’ and ‘distressed’ movements that she makes to free herself from her chrysalis, isn’t somewhat similar. Getting “therapy”, my (divine) distress was subdued and somewhat placated, though never went away. In retrospect, even though it felt disingenuous at the time, luckily, I didn’t share my inner dreams and visions. Most MDs and therapy providers would have drugged and “locked me up”. Like butterfly who dies when someone tries to “help” her get out of her ancestrally formed skin. You can imagine how I feel about “therapy” now!!!
I recently learned too that shamans see animal’s spirit as a ginormous collective of entity – like ‘butterfly’ is Gaia’s “BUTTERFLY” spirit. ‘BUTTERFLY’ is imbued in all creation -in one way or another, not just in any individual butterfly – but all of them and in all beings ! We, as flame-like mitochondrial beings, all have a part of us which must ‘struggle’ to free and blossom. Tree (or ‘TREE’) does this every spring. ‘SNAKE’ sheds her skin. ‘BEAR’ leaves his (or her) winter lair half-dead.
PSS. As I was writing this, out of the corner of my eye I saw the back of a large brown furry being walk by my window. WT(F)? Turns out there were three yearlings about to descend on my roses which they love to nibble! I got to coo while they wandered off.
(These days I spray almost every other day with deer-off alternating with bitter apple, so they aren’t quite so alluring, yet they still visit.) I live in a city so it’s still very exciting to see them!
(There’s even a mystic message in their visit-for both of us!)
Here’s an essay about our collective(s) as an extension of ourselves. https://drjenwyman-clemons.com/2024/01/23/collectives/)
PSSS. Also, you may or may not be interested in any one of several Hebrew Aleph Bet essays which were ‘downloaded’ to me- since I know you’re active in the Judaica world! )
