Requested feedback -some thoughts and responses to your youtube webinars.
JW
Sun 8/4/2024 09:59
Hi, 
Well, you did ask for some feedback – so I am sharing with you. You’re always so thorough, it’s hard for me to really add anything to what you’re saying, but (this is a very big but, so you might want to sit down to read this) for the last five years, I’ve been having a spiritual awakening as well. 
 
I became intrusively possessed by a loving spirit entity. It happened after a Reiki session with a man who I didn’t know (much) The man said several things that seemed personal at the time, (and still do, such as, “ I’m looking for an intense and passionate relationship“ and a couple of other sweet things) and when I was feeling very vulnerable; it was 4 weeks after my husband of 26 years asked me for a divorce. I’d met the man the week before.
 
His words completely freaked me out. I lost it with him (later) and I sent him letters and tried to visit his office a couple of times. Miss perfect even made a scene. (5 Virgo moon) 
 
 It didn’t go well. That was Nov 1 2019 (all saints day- and for an unrelated reason, I had vowed (for that day especially) that I “wasn’t going to commit myself to anyone or anybody after 26 years of mediocre marriage”. Hmmm. 
 
His  words were like a Cupid arrow, especially when he said, “you can do whatever you want” referring to my fee for the session and looking at me with dreamy soulful eyes. (I have a money hangup)

His energetic shard  just entered base of my heart and spread up into my chest and down into my spleen- and continues. I’ve been in a state of rapture that’s ongoing- ‘Kundalini rising’ on steroids. Before then, I was completely shut down-I didn’t even know how bad I was. At all.
 
In all fairness, I had been hiding myself for a long time. I call it like being completely effaced. I avoided all intimacy- other than physical, nothing emotional, mental or spiritual. I was on my “mission” in life and hadn’t time for messy distractions.
 
And for someone like me who was also a foster child (had abusive mentally ill sick mom- philandering dad didn’t want me- yet all absolutely  necessary for my evolution today), and been completely on my own (emancipated minor) since I was 15-  I got my information from Books, not people, and ongoing therapy.
 
 I am 66 now, before then I was an allergy doctor. And at the same time, I was also a version of mystic not yet channel, but I didn’t tell anyone. (I grew up in a very spiritually unfriendly milieu- and next door to Salem Massachusetts-so had good reason to hide it.)
 
(I have almost 100% compatibility on Astro theme with Edgar Cayce, Nostradamus, and Hazrat Inyat Khan- a Persian sound and color mystic. With all three ~100% on a mental, emotional, physical, and spiritual house and planet based on their algorithm- except like 97% on one aspect. I wondered at one point, if I might be a reincarnation.)

I had had frequent dreams and visions. Saw life as signs answering me. Dreams have skillfully guided me my whole life. And I have lived according to synchronicity and serendipity -so in a state of near complete passivity~ pretty successfully. Heeding all my inner inklings (but researching them too, to the best of my ability before acting on them).
 
As a doc, ask patients questions that I’d get the answer to before they would speak them. I’d randomly open textbooks, read a passage – then the next day 3 patients would show up with that symptom and diagnosis.
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And the guy kind of figured it out. He really “liked seeing me in my element“ when I gave him Reiki.
 
I’d written a single essay called “Dearest Little One,” in response to hearing about several orphaned children being abandoned by their provider which completely triggered me. 
 
That was published on my website which he I’ve since learned “likes research” -so had an opportunity to review before he met with me, (he interviewed me for G_d only knows what reason.) And then he decided to make an appointment for the Reiki.
 
He’s a chiropractor. In fact, this whole experience reminds me of the Chariklo Chiron story.

In all fairness before each confrontation with the man that said what he said, I did give him the option of not doing anything or saying anything to me -and that’s what he chose. 
 
However, since then I’ve tried to get together with him and he has been completely unresponsive; so I’m in my limbo. 
 
Meanwhile, Slowly, I’ve been re-organizing myself from the inside out. Improving on my borderline hoarding tendencies. (I even wrote an essay about that and published it on a New York Times comment section.) A good way to use strong Pluto energy – is to transform a corner, or even a drawer that’s messy.
 
And in the in the process of healing, I’ve also written about 180 essays on my website:
Drjenwyman-clemons.com Including ~couple dozen essays on the Mysticism of the Hebrew letters- like I’m a channel for them.
 
As I’ve come to become more healed, I’ve also been able to come off all my (pain and adhd) medications; am mostly sober for the first time since I was 13! (Exploring alternate realms is one of Pisces’s mysteries/superpowers).
 
After his words affected me so strongly, I feel like his (my projection) spirit entity is completely enmeshed with me-my heart – head, neck, and thorax especially. truly, a soul retrieval experience!
 
Coming to the point of my letter, I’ve also realized we are responsive mitochondrial organs of probabilistic electron clouds – so pure energy forms embodying planetary transits according to our natal and progressed chart. 
 
And we are exquisitely, quintessentially, sensitive to words, let alone actions. This is the topic on my LD (love daemon) series. There’s a reason the Bible starts with “G-d is the Word, and Word is G-d”
 
Along this theme, after retiring at age 56, when I realized that medicine as practiced today, is completely placebo based and ~fraudulent, I shifted gears and have been focusing on astrology. up until then, medicine was my entire identity.
 
 (I am a mom too, but I wasn’t very good at it….two sons. So far both are mostly ok and~ thriving; neither are thrilled with me being possessed nor with me becoming an astrologer, so we have limited contact – which is Their choice.)
 
I finished my astrology course with the Afa a couple of years ago, and given that I’m a 15 Pisces with a 0 virgo Pluto on the mid heaven, and a 15 Scorpio rising, the words that we use in astrology to describe Neptune, Pluto, Mars and Saturn are really difficult.

Though I have known for quite a long time (since before I was three) that I was a messenger of sorts and that one day (I didn’t know how I was gonna do it), I am gonna do something really important – for the global community.

Either that or I’m delusional and psychotic. Which is possible too. But you know how Pluto is when on the MC, and it’s right next to ~on Regulus! (MC leo 26/ Saturn is sag 26); Uranus leads my bucket at 8 leo. Right near where the new moon is today!

But many astro books are poisonous. Most gave me kind of a toxic shaming outlook. In the seventies there was only one keyword for Pluto (transformative) that wasn’t completely awful. I can’t read those any more that keep naming what our global community is drowning in – sorrow and hatred – and the symptoms of it.
 
 They all need to be rewritten =to just focus on what we want and not on anything negative; to just be reassuring – yes our souls needed the exact experience we had.  We must find the silver linings.

Forget about all of the ”bad” aspects of the planets. Because I feel all of the difficult attributes of Pluto , Saturn and Mars are basically due to blocks and oppositions from the latter and our lineage of fear-based culture. Using words like “sordid”, “underbelly”, or any other negative key word, while they may accurately describe a situation, by naming it, they keep it stuck.

Speak to what you want – like Pluto in Aq might be love-based humanity (as Pluto is both love and not love); Saturn in Pisces defines our vessel and Merkaba of spiritual self; Mars in Gemini- Creations from duality (which require passion (Mars and Commitment to our dignity and rules, Saturn).
 
As far as the Uranian planets, developed by the Germans, we should rephrase them too. I don’t know enough about their energies to comment – but I will say this, Gaia (and G_d) one being the vessel of the other, has given us a lot to focus on! So while we can use additional entities, we are making life a bit more complicated. Those dwarf planets are spectacular!- like the outer shape of the egg white around our yolk of self which might be considered our more classic solar system.
 
Every single astrological element is essential to our integrity and existence. They all have extremely valid, vital, and important roles to play. Their definitions thus far, were developed to share in the least threatening way, warnings for the king – who has no difficulty killing off subjects that present any challenge.  

But by killing off subjects he loses all their perfect medicine – so they keep coming back- as they are truths about the self.
 
The time is come to realize there are necessary virtues in each and every one of us – no matter race, gender, age, sexual orientation, etc. Can you Imagine what that world might look like if everyone contributed to the best of their ability?! It doesn’t have to be dull at all.
 
We have no idea how insidious, programming, and destructive our language is with what we’re saying to each other!

I listened to your week ahead forecast and you left me shuddering. Is that really a way to reach my highest potential when I’m in a place of head-down fear- Staying on my safe trod path of labyrinth? I’d argue no.
 
[Furthermore, and this is in general – sort of the ‘next step’, if you will, schools are perpetuating the crushing of spirits with report cards and teaching subjects that are completely unrelated to the other subjects, – promoting silos and class divisiveness. After all, our ed system is based on the King’s and noblemens’ tutors, who never wanted to be too threatened.

While everyone focuses on their niches, they miss the big picture.
 
If we were to teach essential activities like cooking and sewing and woodworking and metal shop for everyone, boys and girls, we’d have less power struggles; we could teach chemistry and science and math and history according to those subjects. Think of how much less controversy; no more arguing over ~silly stuff. People would know they have value and worth and ability-Before they even left high school. That’s the topic of my Souk essay. ]
 
I’m sorry this is a little bit/ very peripatetic, I hope I painted a clear picture and I hope this was worth it for you to read, it seemed apropos to your missive.

And I’m finally sharing my story with those who resonate somehow- effaced no more.
 
Happy new moon!!! 
Love and blessings! 
Dr Jen 
 
And PS please don’t mix business and pleasure – unless you’re on a pleasure business trip where everyone is focused similarly. Would you be comfortable if I said I really ‘loved that form of beautiful man’ – essentially reducing him to a piece of meat? Unless he were in a beauty contest. We are infinite beings after all – each and every one of us. What we see for photons coming off of skin is the tip of our expressive iceberg.
PSS – You do shoot energy out of your fingertips – its called typing your heart out!!! Each finger has a planetary energy. You get to express all of them not just using a pen.