Here’s a back and forth with a middle-aged woman astrologer. She grew up in South Africa and laments having to walk by ~squalid misery (my words).

In it, due to the direction it took, I bring another revelation- my boldest yet.

It started with me cancelling my subscription to her podcast.

I wrote: “I cancelled ~the 20th – a day or so after auto renewal! Thanks!

a refund would be swell!

Happy seasons! blessings,

jen (15degree Pisces with 15 Scorpio ascendant and 5 virgo moon)

ps.

I can no longer belong to a group such as yours which erases and shuts me down- as you did with my “mystic” comment.

 (i have jupiter sandwiching nn with neptune in 12.) I’ve been shut down too long- my clamshell’s opening up as I experience being possessed by another’s words (along with eyes when he said what he said.)”

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She wrote: OK — that makes sense. I was worried you’d cancelled ages ago. Refund incoming. You may get December horoscopes anyway.

I’m sorry you felt shut down by me. I really don’t recall the incident at all, but I do hate hurting people’s feelings. So I am genuinely sorry. As a fellow Pisces I know how hard it is to be heard and how wounding it can be when someone casually swipes one away.  Was this at the Salon? I struggle to control some people there who talk over everyone else.

Anyway, please accept my apologies for hurt feelings.”

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Hi Christina,

thanks for the apology. it was in the salon. Maybe your partner chucked it. I also don’t remember getting ny publications recently?!

here’s the gist (my pet peeve)

As thought leaders, your (yours and Sally’s) words are especially crucial. People listen to you- especially those of us with ‘weak’ (and week-oriented =moon watching) minds.

 I put ‘weak’ with apostrophe bc that’s what left-brain skewed world thinks of astrology. meanwhile pure logic and quest for a tangible rationality is, as usual, leading us down the path to nowhere- more wAr, famine, impoverishment, and disease.

While astrology needs to become much more mainstream- as in taught in schools, its language needs to shift first -to always reflect our highest potential for dignified sovereignty.

Such as: focus on healthy qualities of the “male-fics” with their active principles.

from our present experience of being polarized and skewed, challenging aspects seem destructive- when they are there to excite and hone us as we bloom into creational beings; nagging aspects keep us on track so to speak.

fears reflect our attachment to polarity-us vs them, kings vs commoners, doctors vs patients , teachers vs students. in truth we are all of these- you’re a mom- you know this already. Everything works out in the end!!! the universe has your back.

There is no better than- we’re all G-d-given waveform beings of probabilistic electron clouds of density (thank you Saturn). as energy bodies,we are orchestrated by the universe -but given free will to speak and use language.

we just reflect and radiate light differently as hu(e)-mans. we are exquisitely sensitive to words from others-  especially those we respect naturally -those taller and fairer than our mirror image- with deeper voices.(they penetrate deeper into our water being selves).

the universe always gives us exactly the right medicine- for us and our emotional, mental, and spiritual collectives.

 I hope Sally likes her new digs. it sucks to always be the outsider. intimacy is scary.

l’Ove and blessings,

J

my website is drjenwyman-clemons.com where i tease out lots of similar ideas. I’ll probably post a version of this letter.’

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She wrote:

Hmm.

Well I basically agree with you — especially about the “malefics” being mislabelled and “weak” not being weak, and challenging aspects being opportunities. Astrology, and the language around it, is embedded in the patriarchy or the “system” or whatever we want to call it, so we need to disentangle that language. This is a process — and I notice that the astrological establishment is doing its best to crush dissidents, just as our art balloons into McAstrology on the web.

I think where we part ways is that we always get exactly what we need. I know I come from a place of incredible privilege with my full fridge, a roof over my head, and the people I love around me — but I grew up in a place where some people literally lived in paper shacks and begged for food on the street. I saw children dressed in rags every day, and was schooled to harden my own heart in a way that was completely unhealthy. It affected me forever since I know they are no different from me with their human hearts, their loves, their likes and dislikes, their desires and hopes. My feeling is: there but for the grace, go I. So I sincerely do not believe that we each get exactly the right medicine, but only that we must try our best to be good in this world.

I can see from your writing that you are someone who is trying to do exactly that, so I salute you. And again, I am sorry if I was unkind.

C

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I wrote: MY MOST BOLD ASSERTION YET:

Hi Christina,

I’m sorry this is so long. But well, Mars rules my chart, is exalted in my third house…and is my most ‘mature’ planet sidereally…so I’m pretty excitable and I love (with Venus in 3 too) to communicate.

First off, I used to feel exactly the same way as you about less fortunate children and families.

For years, I tried to ‘help’ in whatever way I could. I grew up in a ~wealthy home – but at age 6 the whole thing fell apart for “reasons”.  After years of being a runaway, I eventually went into foster care. Then I was definitely an outsider and couldn’t relate to those with “nice” families. (With Pluto on the MC, this is a typical scenario.)

 I’m 67 now. As a result of my experiences, I realize those sentiments (which I learned from my mother screeching about worldly matters) weren’t actually helpful – in fact disempowering. What I’m writing here is controversial but I hope you’ll understand my logic- based on observations, logic, and some mysticism thrown in.

With welfare systems, free food, and health, in the US, ‘we’ve’ tried the appeasing approach to assuage our conscience for treating people poorly (as in slavery)-ostensibly  hoping to relieve poverty and crime. It hasn’t worked – and brought more dysfunction. This is a natural consequence of the Hermetic Laws of Attraction.

As waveforms, our approach to life is ~dictated by the programming of language – in utero. Even in the shanties. (I’m assuming you’re referring to growing up in South Africa or thereabouts. Ignore the rest if not – or go visit Birmingham or any Asian country(!))

Listen to the way impoverished parents speak -roughly and diminishingly, to each other and their children- automatically. They’re not conscious they’re doing it. I often hear ~destructive language when I shop at my local JC Pennies. They don’t spare their own dignity at all. The way some mothers speak to their children, it’s no wonder they’re filled with hopelessness. It’s worse at home. Parents have internalized their crippling rulers – honed by certain foreign provocateurs. It’s no wonder they’re all the most sick. (I was an allergist/ internist for ~30 years; by far this demographic group is the most poorly – with wo(e)-men next.)

Nascent embryo, water being, hears all but understands nothing. Only later puts 2 and 2 together.

I’m willing to wager your parents never spoke to you so roughly. Nor did they expose you routinely to a sense of dire hopelessness.

Language shuts each other down using names and titles- even when applied by proxy -such as witnessing an elder (to them) say “you’re just like”-about some relative who’s been kind to them but been a disappointment to said “elder”.

Or “you’ll never amount to”- becomes a literal truth when a teacher gives poor marks to a student because a class didn’t resonate with them.

To a toddler, teenagers are tall adults with power! Whatever they hear, they  believe literally. Magnify that by thousands if it’s a teacher.

Believe it or not, you were/are an inspiration to those who seem impoverished.  You’re a natural leader. Sure, it’s b/c you’re white – they can see you more easily. And they can more easily see when you’re being genuine – or not. They naturally look up to you. (they can’t help it- at least until now.)

Amongst their own, with less light radiating, they don’t need to work to hide themselves the way we’ve been taught (I’m fair-toned too)- to keep a stiff upper lip etc. They also don’t tune in so much with their eyes but with their ears (and heart). Though many have now learned to do the  former as well.

I witnessed this over and again visiting ~third world countries soloing on my own -(Mexico, India, Nepal). Watching vocal interactions and body language between ‘whites’ and those more diminutive and darkly toned. It is and was very telling for who has and who surrenders power.

This is recapitulated in our armed forces; the superiors are almost always tall and white. (I was an army physician for much of my career.)

When their language sweetens, life will be less toxic – even if nothing else changes.

(Which is also why all astrology books must be shifted – so us natural Martian, Plutonian, Neptunian, Saturnians and Uranians get empowered, not demeaned.)

From where an individual family’s lineage was before, say 20 years previously, let along hundreds or thousands, what you witnessed (in the shanties) was  and is in reality an improvement.  As lineages they never ‘had to / got to’ leave Africa. They don’t know any other language but their lineage of ~brutal patriarchy. Even today their leaders look scary and thuggish- if the recent publicized pictures of political summit are doing them justice.

Until now, many if not most, are like children- raw gems unpolished. Of course they are lovely deep inside – and they have the potential to shine. And I don’t just mean Terry Pratchett’s version of making simple but beautiful art objects (like his stories about stinky dirty ‘goblin’ children), but real magnificence.

According to “Nat Geo”,  our maternal lineages did leave for reasons no one seems to have explored – why did the diaspora(s) even happen?! (I submit it was due to natural sporadic albinism – white ghosts are spirits come to life; by their distraction, they gained both power and became targets. Most were killed, according to my research-it would be natural for them to want to leave. Today, the African subcontinent has the highest rates of albinism on the planet.)

 White South Africans (like the Dutch) came back to Africa thousands of years later- changed.  They are and were verbal, well dressed, heeled, and wealthy – and with lots of weapons, relatively speaking. Their ‘sophistication’ belied their lineage’s experience of surviving through many new climes which they had to/got to adapt to and learn from. Every experience teaches new names broadening vocabulary and expands one’s sense of resourcefulness.

And, that you came as a family to live there proves to them (subconsciously) their land has worth -resources, beauty, and attraction. 

No one can pull another out of their mire- but someone has to ‘reach’ them – like a leader they naturally revere who affirms them for what they create with their hands and their ideas. Could be someone like you (or me).

And when monies, which are in actual abundance, are applied usefully- as in my ‘Souk school and adult collective’ vision(s), people will experience a greater sense of usefulness and supportive community which hasn’t been heretofore available.

“Souk” is the root word for success (and lasting sweetness).  https://drjenwyman-clemons.com/2025/04/25/summary-of-souk-school-and-collective-its-value-and-blessings/

Meanwhile here’s an essay about how our soma gets programmed in utero to (eventually) recreate our worlds of power (and inequality).   https://drjenwyman-clemons.com/2025/01/24/an-analysis-of-soma-self-that-part-of-us-that-holds-us-together/

Ultimately, we create our patriarchies  – as we give ‘dad’ our power. It’s no wonder he’s a little wacky- we treat him like a god. it’s time to empower people. Oh, did I hear Pluto’s in Aquarius?!!!

Apology accepted. Happy Holidays! Be blessed!!!

J

“triggering” means we’re passionate about a thing.  feelings – driven by emotions, are trying to tell us about what we l’ove and don’t l’ove. (L’Ove is anything that supports our Orphic Egg of creator self.) Sometimes they’re “ouch!” As parents we’re ‘supposed’ to do that – why the MC and IC square the ASC, even as it’s progressing we get to be their nags by the squares’ sesquiquadrates and semisquares!”

Just thought I’d share this with my audience!