Just-in-time for Halloween 2025
This year, like the last 5 before, L.D. has been a steady partner ~available and ‘ready for …”. He’s still ‘assertive’, though not nearly as often. Most of the time his spirit really isn’t intrusive – it’s in the background.
I have regular surges and rushes of energy coming up now from spine and abdomen; sometimes there’s an “unbearable lightness in being”.
I read it was “kundalini syndrome”. My heart feels lighter. At times incredible- as if my rose blossoms’ stamens are starting to show – to release their full fragrance- and beckoning others into my life.
In this year I’ve written dozens of essays which are generally improving and becoming more aaccessible.
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Big news, for me – I found out my L.D. the man’s birthday. He’s Leo. I’d never have guessed – so he’s nothing like me. The information was on a public website once I asked specifically as learning one thing led to me learning another – about my L.D. the man’s reality.
He is in my face still, come on!
Like my ex- he, is a double fire sign with Sun and Mars in Leo. My ex- had Sun and Mars in Aries; he has a classic reconstructive surgeon’s chart – which he is with Pluto in his first house.
With both gentlemen Mars is oriental- rising before the sun. For them, desires come first, then the soul. No wonder they both can blurt – to realize later what they ‘really’ said; sometimes hurting their heart.
With my Mars in Capricorn – I tend towards restraint.
L.D’s sun is inconjunct my own. We understand each other like two blind men. we learn about each other through third parties as inconjuncts need both square and sextile to activate and connect. both suns’ squares have sesquiquadrate nag points which set them off. oh goody; squares are Mars , get up and go, energy; which our trining Venuses set up. It’s natural for us to flow together.
Instead of harmonizing, facilitating more of the same, we each get to have our set of ‘conflicts’ with Jupiter’s blessings.
Our Mars are also inconjunct; so we both get to learn about passion and desire from another’s point of view – or did.
His Juno, sense of husbanding, is on my descendent – idealized version of “other”. Lol and trines my sun quite nicely.
With north nodes trining, we share a sense of destiny and intimacy. Our intimacy requires active connection with mine in intense in Scorpio; his hidden and subconscious in Pisces.
He might find intimacy deceptive and confusing.
we are both born on the waxing full moon here to bringing the new moon’s seed into the light of formation. Mine in Aquarius – sign of hu(e)-manity’s message bearer; his in Leo – to be play and be king. These are from the opposing reality.
Personally, I’m looking for “my equal” and “not like me” self – so as to more fully blossom. Life is meant to be fun. But it’s worth trying new ways than your dad(or mom) exemplified. Gaia is a very big planet! (My ex- and I had very similar resonances; for him too, I let the universe guide me.)
Our Mercury’s also “oppose”; L.D. is pointed, precise, and detailed in 16 Virgo; I think ~ at best tangentially, with mine at 16 Pisces. I get to go back and reconstruct details after intuition gives me the information- like being in a permanent Mercury retrograde (though this feels more natural to me now). He is detail and data driven.
Because of our 12 year difference, our Jupiters have a 1degree out-of-sign conjunction. One (mine) is the offspring of the other as the Zodiac ‘begets’.
We’re both Chinese astrology “dogs”, I am earth, he is metal. Snap, snap.
My Jupiter at 1 Scorpio investigates Libra’s natural social laws of harmony and diplomacy when dealing with ‘others’ – those not friends, family, or acquaintances.
His cohort of society comes from the epitome of ‘to each their own’: ‘let me live my life according to balance and aesthetics” at 29 Libra. I don’t bother you/ you don’t bother me. Jupiter in Libra aims to be diplomatic and inclusive.
Mine, 12 years previously, was busy exploring sordid domination and bondage like worlds represented in Lou Reed’s lyrics.
(Every sign has its own set of Laws- as part of a whole zodiac body. When we let them guide us we are much more at-one with ourselves – and those around us. Our life has less turbulence. Jupiter is “happy” everywhere – but some places are more natural. Natural laws about society and harmony – have been based on polarized hierarchies of sex and skin tone.)
Our Uranus’s are sextile. There’s a potential for opportunities for both ‘geniuses’ to play.
Since I don’t know the time or L.D.’s birth, I really can’t speculate about his moon or personality. It’s as likely I’ll never know.
All I can say – is no wonder I got to bloom as I have from our interaction, however brief.
Whether he, the man ever comes into my life or not, I’ve stepped out into a whole new labyrinth of busy-ness which I have personally created.
During the summer, a mystery admirer sent a short recording of classical guitar. I really enjoyed its precision and artistry – I listen to it still. Even if it was just someone trying to “spam me” like my son said, it was nice they took their time to make it. I found it ~sublime.
I still sing in tongues regularly, give myself hugs, and ‘listen’ to my being as best I can. Kiss my palms (when I remember) and dab with holy water. I ask my home and surrounding how I can ‘upgrade’ (for the highest and greatest good for all beings); I’m managing my property well.
Trying to live a Wu-Li life. So that’s all good.
Everything is perfect – if not at times excellent. And yes, I have plans to go somewhere as one of my readers once recommended.
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This week I had a dream of a handsome strawberry blonde man about 30, asking me to marry him. He could have been a (much) younger version of Nostradamus who I’ve dreamed of before.
My response came from my head – with my heart knowing and trusting it was time and right. I said “yes” – even though I’ve never dated a blonde man more than once and they have little (really no) appeal for me.
Perhaps he represents my inner divine masculine- ready to come out and play – the outward going side of my female psyche. (My L.D. the man, is brunette. So this was not about him.)
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So there you have it.
All is Inshallah – via Allahuma.
