Here are some thoughts I shared with a shamanic healer who led an all-women’s conference. I’m not one for sororities or any other inherently divisive conference, so I only attended her personal presentations.

Hi J, 

Thank you for including me in your shamanic nature workshop. I found it really interesting. There are a couple of other dimensions to the loss of women’s power and Yin that might interest you.

This is the longest email I’ve written in a while – but you did give so much, I want to share this. It might blow you away a little bit. 

I used to be a physician, but I’ve ‘known’ I’m here to be a messenger for the Divine Feminine – however She shows up for me -usually as a big shimmering white snake. I have a long and twisting tale that brought me to where I am now – openly speaking about it which brings me to the first point. 

As waveforms of energy, which we are – as surely as there are probabilistic electron clouds, we are exquisitely sensitive to the power of Word. Especially when we are in, for whatever reason, a receptive state. 

We start being ‘trained’ in the womb – as mom ceases activities or slows whenever a deep voice speaks to her. That is called ~losing power – literally, especially if that voice is heard less often since traditionally dads leave home for several hours a day. (Power is the rate at which a certain intensity of work is done.) Sure we gain it again, sometimes even amp up.

So baby associates mom’s shifts in energy for bad or good- with dad’s voice. Baby ‘knows’ mom inside and out; dad is separate.

This is accompanied by neurohormonal changes that the baby directly experiences as hormones cross the placental barrier. If there’s adrenaline, baby gets a squeeze to its blood supply.

Also as water beings, voices that are lower are more penetrating. Sib’s voices are like a high-pitched choir. Mom changes her voice with them too.

So this is an inherent conditioning system that teaches baby (actually fetus), hierarchy. After birth, baby puts faces with sounds – but the patterns have been building subconsciously for months. Worldwide, after birth boy and girl babies are  treated differently – which further deepens ~confusions about equality. Did you know that in China girls have been called trash and garbage to their faces – even still today by their grandfathers (in some cases?) Ouch there’s a lot of freeing to be done.

2) All children are being damaged by being measured. Again, as we are waveforms – and responsive light body beings (under our skin), we both radiate and reflect photons. Like a photon wave can be split by a slit lamp into separate waves, we are too. When we receive critical remarks within our milieu of teachers, doctors, gossiping parents – or even remarks about others we otherwise don’t know – we literally, as young children, “believe” them. Our waveform freezes a little.

 By parsing kids into abstract non-sense educational silos, which S.T.E.M. Does now, we are ALL dissociated from 3D reality- especially of and from home.

To get an “A” in a subject is meaningless. It has no helpful bearing on life. Judging any being about their whole 80 year or longer years of a life’s usefulness, as kids are with report cards, does nothing but destroy our G-d’s gift of will.  (Which our will is!).

Boys are being damaged by this especially – after 6 years of being told they’re more like dad than mom (who they know inside and out). They are completely ungrounded.

Familiarity breeds contempt; then sh*t flows downhill to the “less powerful”. Never mind men are inculcated that “wo(e)-man” are to blame for their misfortunes by religious institutions and they are told the lie that wo(e)-man have all the power. This is blatantly untrue.

To be sent to school before they are excited to go feels like a punishment and rejection from mom – and the home. We are so conditioned to be broken we have NO IDEA how bad it is.

About 5 years ago, after my husband of 26 years asked for a divorce (the same year my mother died even though we weren’t close, father became incontinent -I visited for the last time 3000 miles away, beloved dog passed, cat disappeared) Pluto was on my Mars and Neptune was on my sun (exactly for both), I was invited to a chiropractor’s office for a “chat”.

Afterwards, this guy who had said very little (his partner did all the talking)  scheduled a Reiki appointment with me. Before, during a and after the appointment he said stuff that could only be thought of as intimate. I had written about 3 essays including “dearest little one”.

After his last phrase, “you can do whatever you want”, a golden shard flew into the base of my heart and then over to my spleen and then radiated up over my left side. I became intrusively possessed by an intensely loving presence. I’ve been in a more on than off state of rapture ever since. It continues to change in its quality – becoming more steady and constant. I call it, “I’m in love” (with myself, apparently).

The guy disappeared from my life – but not before I reached out to tell him about it (repeatedly). (I never chased men b/c I can just look at them a certain way and boom! into bed we’d go. Then I felt unclean afterwards as I got to know them more. I have a Scorpio rising; natal Pluto is on my midheaven – I’m naturally quite seductive.)

Ironically it happened on Nov 1, All Saint’s Day specifically when I said out loud, “NFW am I going to commit myself to anyone or anybody after 26 years of mediocre marriage!” (referring to another situation altogether). That was proof of the power of WORD which has opened my heart – and my sharing what I’ve known all along – that I’m a mystic channel and linguistic mystic -especially of the Hebrew letters.

Growing up near and in Salem MA, I knew what men did to those who had clairs, like clairaudience, clairvoyance, clairsentience, so I’d always hidden it before. I had clairaudience with patients and more prophetic dreams (all written down) than I can count.

I’ve documented my journey on my website drjenwyman-clemons.com in case you’re intrigued or interested to learn more. 16 essays about my “love daemon” and another 200 on everything else! I’m working (lol) on a book about “personal sovereignty” which I’d argue mankind (let alone wo(e)-men-kind) has never known.

Even our “kings” are trapped by their words. ‘Men’ are broken by their world as they continually try to “please the boss”. Not making excuses – but making observations.

I say wo(e)-man because women traditionally carry all the woes, concerns, and ‘feel better’ remedies for everyone else – especially the men. Wo(e)-men are told to make their men ‘feel’ better, blah, blah, blah. Always, until now, wo(e)-man are trained a reactive force – not proactive creator G-ddesses they are to make not only babies – but lasting beauty with their hands.(at least until now, Inshallah). 

Lastly, I offer in my website visions for a new school system based on applying S.T.E.M. to the home and shop arts sewing, cooking, carpentry, metalworks for all sexes- and to equal exposure to both “men’s” and “women’s” worlds. They get proficiency badges instead of reports. history is about documenting each other’s stories so collectives get to learn about each other organically; science is observing and then sharing those observations in some form – story or picture (or dance).

“Medicine” is littered with negative conditioning. most remedies are absolute placebo. Each condition is the tip-of-the-iceberg for symbolism. We doctors are creating monsters with our continued focus on the negative (just look at those damn questionnaires they have you fill out and inventory if you have this or that awful symptom or disorder; they don’t phrase in a positive way – or say “tell me more”).

After I met someone with Lupus who said it all went away with changing to a vegan diet my mind went a little crazy.

What if all this “autoimmune” stuff is actually the body’s crossreacting to porcine antigens and their whole lineage of being abused (as yes, we can sense resonance in food)?! WE share pig DNA almost exactly.  (I have a degree in cell and molecular biology and was an allergist for decades).

Yogis can tell if the cook had an argument! Food doesn’t taste as good and it doesn’t settle as well.

Each person who touches ‘mass produced’ food – puts their resonance into it- the pickers, the deliverers, the boxers, the men who made the machines. For good – or bad. Mass produced food had a lot of hands touching it!

I am still trying to do some shifting which is why I came and listened. For instance, I still love ballet and do it regularly even though this is entertainment for males and dancers are always toeing their line (instead of doing their own choreography). I do it at home now which is new thanks to Covid.

Also, since my “intrusion” was really distracting and disconcerting, while I was able to stop taking all my pain and anxiety meds, I still smoked pot. It was the only way I could ‘hear’ anything else.

For the first time in my life – I’m basically off all substances including alcohol. (I’m a Pisces – we have that rap although astrologers also aid and abet that with their words and prognositications!)

Also how much protein do we need when huge gorillas eat a diet of leaves (and probably bugs)? Basing our protein and MDR  requirements on versions of 70kg white stressed (British) males doesn’t seem right for the grounded and centered, well balanced and paced individual.

Even though essences, like all drugs, treatments, and surgeries may well be another form of placebo – they work. it is your words of coaching and believing in THEM and their better selves that helps one’s soma shift. Whenever we see and touch the bottle, soma self remembers your belief in us- and it. It’s sort of like a version of hypnosis.

Flower essences are version of seduction if you will – rather than trying to externally force. I love them- I make pictures of the medicines and use their colors as remedies. Crystals work too. Maybe I’ll even get a special ‘me’ one from you! Thank you so much for those suggestions. I think I could use all of them.

I’m sorry to say I couldn’t stomach the pure focus on women, because we aren’t in a silo – we’re in a (12D really) 5D world, manifest into tangible 3D, with beings of all sorts. I didn’t listen to the summit- this year; maybe next also because there were already 2 others that I’d committed to – which I was burnt out from.

Being androgynous, I have a lot of divine will and discontent but because of my L.D. experience I’m finally ‘coming out’. There are no mistakes or accidents – we show up exactly on time!!! We are the literal embodiment of our astrology as planets progress and transit. (And it really is all divinatory magic!)

I shared some of my story with Risa B. Who led me to you!

Blessings and l’ove (all that is of our path to our Orphic egg), 

Dr. Jen

PS. Long detailed epistles are a hallmark of Divine Feminine’s wellspring!!! And obviously, ‘boundary issues’ (which are a divine masculine construct). 

(She may have received but did not acknowledge.)

Note added later – all mitochondrial beings offer gifts and opportunity to expand and grow. One ‘man’s’ gift, is another’s poison. As hu(e)-mans embodying our waveform, we are meant to receive from all those helpful and necessary for our personal evolution. In this way we can serve our collectives more authentically and productively – helping both thrive.

Each plant has its sort of wisdom as does each animal. All are willing to share unconditionally – in any way ‘man’ chooses. The more conscious we are of their gift, as in observing sacred rites of harvest and savoring the dose, the more potent it is for us – because we’ve honed our attention on them for that much longer.

When we ‘choose’ healers for us, usually they have something we feel is lacking. This may be the white coat (and light body) status, a confidence, a knowing – which we can otherwise relate to.

With their ‘words’ of recommendation, we receive direct honed attention from them- these beings we perceive as powerful. Call it a mini-shard of love. Later, when we take the prescription, we (subconsciously) recall their faith and confidence. This restores our healing processes.