To be deserving and entitled are two words used quite a lot not always in a healthy or productive way.
Let’s start with “entitle”. This is spoken “n-title”, as spelled[1] to our hive mind senses, as nun- from infinite oneness–title : Tau-Yod-Tau (ת׳ת). One’s personal Kabbalah (ת) inspired (׳) and in alignment with our earthed being. With which we create in the physical- bound with Lamed’s rules and structures. The silent “E” as change, can get us taken away.
Tau Yod Tau (ת׳ת)
Is IAM’s
Want to ‘be’ not forgotten.
In accordance with our judges (Lamed)- both within and without, we want to be accepted and known.
Having a title, means IAM has arrived on (His) stage saying, ‘look at me, I’ve something to offer’.
So how does one gain such a thing as title, on that which one’s heart sets?
Using the tools your family gave you, are your first and main assets. So keep that in mind as you set about to leave your mark.
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So you roll up your sleeves and work, maybe 10,000 hours. This is basically full-time for about five years, lucky ones under tutelage.
After this time, you’re feeling pretty confident; you handle most day-to-day challenges using your own personal algorithms that have born the test of time. Your boss might even call you a “(name of title here)[2]”. You have earned this. That is clear. But given all the titles possible, what does that mean to one who doesn’t know you when you are judged by your being. in a moment?
‘N-title’ is a title from lineage, not necessarily earned the way you might working and honing a skill. Set time to improve your skills around hobbies- you just never know…
Entitlement implies belief of N-title. As the state of “ment”, is a set or construct of ideas. “Ment (al)” being what we believe. Thoughts and perceptions form the basis of our day-to-day decisions and reflect one’s thinking.
Coming from Nun’s death and rebirth cycle, with entitlements there is power – inspiration put into practice, to be entitled is ת squared around Yod’s inspiration like sandwich. It’s not wrong to be entitled, but a form of ignorance to deny. Abuses of power reflect on the one’s whole in the eye’s of other.
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Meanwhile, de-serve is in a corner waiting his turn. Let’s again, let “serve”, go first. To serve means another offers to do for you (or vice-versa).
Implicit there is another person in the equation; as well that you’ve been invited to partake in the situation. It is not random who is sitting at the table!
When you are being served you must wait your turn for the offering to be offered. For this one needs patience. Even if you’re hungry[3], in that moment you sit waiting, unless you’re pregnant woman, child, or infirm aged.[4]
Even if you’re rally hungry – you can sit right there a moment longer.
The sensation in your belly,
Is sensation alone.
It too will pass- after you’ve given it full attention, listening to what your body’s trying to tell you – for about one or two minutes- then might even like a little pat of acknowledgement!
Meanwhile you might visit or talk to those waiting with you. Perhaps strike up a conversation that leads to opportunity beyond. Not all waiting is “bad” or a “waste of time”, it can also be quite productive- even though not obvious to one who is witness.
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Once your server arrives, they stand holding space, waiting to catch your attention, before they load on your plate. Perhaps you’re not ready and have no space for him. Either way there’s often a chance to say, “yay” or “nay”.
Saying, “no” is a choice one can also make, when someone is serving you.
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When you serve another,
You make them an offer
Which has the “yay” and “nay” element.
Though to you, as server, results are opposite. You’ve got a thing to offer, that you’re ready to let go of.
If he or she says, “yes” to the thing, you now have one less. With his decision, you restock sooner or later. In other words, His will dictates your behavior.
Changing our will because of another’s actions could be a form of evil if our server’s will to serve is not well honored.
Both have rules of engagement when offering, accepting and declining- usually lead by “please” and “thank-you”.
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Being deserving (de-away from) serving, implies obtaining, not by waiting and being served, but perhaps a thing you’ve grasped or worked towards. You applied your will actively- whatever you did, it wasn’t just sit!
Perhaps you feel entitled to the fruits of your labors, but in that is an assumption of prophesy- predicting a future. We receive what our heart desires, when He is good and ready.
(Technically, one can only adhere to their side of a bargain and accept outcomes as a temporary condition.)
[1] Symbols of language form literal spells to our subconscious hive-minds.
[2] Calling you your title, part of buttering your ego before (s)he asks you for overtime.
[3] Being hungry is a sensation, like all others, important as a sign for how your Soma self is interacting with surrounds. Notice who, what, where, and when- whenever it shows up. Sensations are temporary – fleeting on the scale of life.
[4] Pregnant women are physically softened during pregnancy, especially ligaments and tissues around the back and pelvis. It takes about 2 years to fully feel firm again and for the body to remember how to carry itself light without the extra.
