Some souls come and make a huge splash,

others barely a ripple.

some seem to skip and surf

across difficult channels.

That is what the outside world sees,

a deeper self perhaps not,

you might never know the story

of how life informs necessity as we play on our stages

propped with patterns from our ancestors’ stories.

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Our spirit comes into embodiment,

and for her earthly delights.

For love’s calling and Gaia- our sensations of life.

We are here to touch Her,

Taste and smell, and savor,

her sweet, sweet earth and use that for our creations.

As well to do our part in caring

for her who makes us whole.  

It’s the last part that sucks I’ll grant you, but our spirits have their work to do and their evolution.

You are in this moment sitting –

yes, are you not breathing?

Then you’re imperfect yes,

But whole too and perfect, each and every one of you, can always get even better too, if you want to try it. Yes, that does, take a lot of courage. Here is where, totems are handy to remind you there’s more to the moment than your senses are ‘telling’ you.

*****

Did you know,

each little spirit you notice[1]

whether leaf, blade, or needle –

has a story it could tell you about a question you might have-

when you clear your mind of expectations of what

should or shouldn’t be, and focus your will instead on what you want?

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I guess that was my blind spot,

an underlying (subconscious) need that drove me

to keep putting myself out there-to some way some how fulfill it- hoping to find love

I’m glad my need wasn’t used to manipulate me.

not everyone can see that- there are many opportunities

to use needs as weapon or token.

when you have the thing and can see what he’ll (or she’ll) do to get it,

it takes great self-discipline, not to bait with it.

With my ex- it was so easy,

I knew exactly what it took to get his sympathetic attention,

All I had to do was wound myself and he came running.

I did that twice in 26 years of marriage.

For his generosity I heard I could wear red so I tried it; we had a delightful dinner.

Getting another bauble or trinket

Couldn’t replace his not loving me – or honestly me not loving him, either.

Myself with no title, my raw animal nature was buried within me deeply.

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It was at his convenience to be of service;

and then he moved like molasses.

Why,

I have no idea. I know how that felt to me.

To be solidly ignored, when I really could have used his help

and not a(nother) lecture.

He even asked me to make him feel guilty(!)-

said his mother did it successfully.

It never once worked with him I could see, even when he really disappointed me.

And then he bad-mouthed her, so why would I want to do so more?

That seemed a proven failure.

And I couldn’t believe

There aren’t two sides to everything.

If not, as we now know, multidimensions!

*****

Stories about archetypes[2]and power animals- 

Which hero won in the end and the why’s of the parable

Resonate in us like totems;

Whether expressed or encoded in areas of silence.

Stories about the world around you encoded in myth. It seems possibly to be no mistake,

the white wing wants to take them.

To guide the world as if

They had the solutions to everything.

The most important stories for a child to learn are about the world around them. Embody those well, and your way out ahead of the kids locked in Sunday School.

Let him young consider, the lawsa and consequences of energy – in motion, you leave in you day. Cultivate an interest and caring you’ll have less to deal with later.

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The limbic and hypothalamic structures haved eveloped over millennia of human evolution – both from a geographical perspective as well as from neuroplasticity- like evolving in real time, albeit subtly.

there are objective variances in brain cluster distributions; which nuclear body groupings, from how their expression is groomed versus vilified; which behaviors get rewarded; which less tolerated. This manifests as epigenetic changes in our tissues, organs, and soma.

This part of the brain itself though, from various directions, is presented with picture of cartoon and drawing; it reminds me of a version of a tree, that seems to be represented, over and over again.

Imagine the manifestation of  a “perfect” brain, might be what we consider G-d. Make no mistake, from the outside it’s a tree of life. 

In the prefrontal cortex, curled deep within the grey, all is measured balanced and valued, but disconnected from midbrain’s learning functionally – unless we choose to.

The midbrain, is where the subconscious emanates from- at least our experience of the thing. All the paths[3]present and encoded; refinements are epigenetic.[4]

These unbalanced cell nuclei clusters

will find a way of expression- no matter how strongly you methylate them.

Get activated like Bitcoins clicking together –

to clarify (archetypal) entity’s pictures, which (hopefully) with ease, emerge

little-by-little.

All right there too, are your brain’s ancient memories [5]

–that 80% you don’t use

unless to your conscience,

your environment is too confusing.[6]

*****

Each of us reflects our mitochondria’s path

on the planet

Our particular hologram’s evolution

a little bit differently.

Her path of survival –reflects her lineages’ dedication to 

what is cultivated as worthy of inheritance–

all the while having her family and community

to manage on top of her bleeding; unless she’s pregnant, then that’s a roulette in some cases; that can be the end of you. The price for having a few moments of pleasure for him not you.

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Our history-

Reflects our biology- a 100 million years of surviving.  

Whatever it is She throws at us, on top of man’s burdens,

Some archetypes are quieted, as she responds to needs pressing.[7]

As your consciousness,

drifts off guard,

protections drop and

your brain’s disarmed.

Our stories flash with glimpses of insight

whether you’re intentionally reposed

in listening position[8],

or rudely awakened by dreams startling, shocking and frightening.

When they come on-line, or bust,

Your captives,

Those dreamed undesirable parts of your psyche,

Can sometimes scare the crap out of you!

(Make sure and write those dreams down – consider that your personal homework in your school of self. They will come true later, somehow or somewhere, so consider them forewarning. Should you choose to ignore them, is your choice. When the time is right, answers always come to you.)

Pondering them then from this position[9], you can

Listen for a message that’s right for you

– and will help loosen gummy expectations- those thoughts you can’t get rid of

The “He said…” “She saids…”, What ifs and whatnots[10]

All mirrors of our fears and issues unresolved –

why do you really care anyway really,

what secondary gain

is your attention serving?

Take mental note…thank them for tugging at your consciousness.  

Fwoosh, then let them float away abated.

If it is important, you will write it later.

Now return your noticing to the tip of your nose and breath[11].

Then as you gradually calm, center and ground yourself, be

Like a top slowing down until it gently topples-

Now you’re in a deeply relaxed condition.

Suggest that your soma flow effortlessly.

Like a breath of fresh air,

May you shift your awareness;

Envisioning the best possible outcome,

And keep that in focus, as you undergo the trial.

Change your mind and let a thing go… it needs no longer matter

or be of your concern.

However always waiting, our top wants to start up again and

be on the ready,

maybe this time it will be a little slower or more even keeled

maybe this time you’ll spin even a little longer,

until it’s time, again, to lie down and see only stars.

*****

When you are calm, centered, and grounded,

you tend to feel better – being in one’s senses

slows down the turbulence-

Fear loves chaos, they are best buddies.

Even 10% improvement is nothing to sniff at!

When you feel happy good,

notice that again, and practice

what it took.  

Serotonin, somatostatin, and like resonating similars,[12]

Loosen your body and support digestive thoroughness.

With metabolism free of tension as you know it,

Mineral corticoids aren’t needed in the moment.

Your kidneys don’t grieve so hard.

Best of all, luck happens,

as you are in always in the right place at the right time,

and no matter what happens,

synchronicities free us from imprisoning time lines.

The good news is, when 51% of your ideas and thoughts are in your love language, your Akashic record shifts to a new frequency and timeline with even better and brighter outcomes! Given the (non-) nature of time and space, it has “already happened” when you make that commitment and you’re already being your new you effortlessly!

*****

(“Love is” post)

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Now, when love is involved

There are no rights or wrongs,

Even if in name only

Homage is homage.

Love can’t be stopped either and

All ‘rules’ get broken.

When thoughts are irresistible

echoing Romeo and Juliet,

Sustained,

you probably want to do something-

before you are

desperate.

Don’t begrudge your soul’s mates past

They are here to teach you;

To help fill in your even tiny blind spots

And make you a better you!

And you them too. (This is true, even if you’re not thanked heartily.)

Besides, holding grudges

Is like sludge to your spirit and smothers.

Your face tightens when you complain.-

Love and laugh to counteract that and enhance your resilience[13]!

Smile a little extra when you catch yourself in a frown or pouting.

Those loves gone by are human after all,

of flesh and bone and mortal

and just as godly as you are.

Recall, they were once perfect for you

in some particular way,

until their other parts kicked in

and your values collided.

“That’s right my dear, just go there”,

you can say in your head.

Then start taking your own inventory and

don’t bad mouth[14]!

Let your lovers leave you

When you stop loving them or

You know they aren’t about you caring.

It’s healthy to let them go,

Even help them go with a little sweetness.

Let a vision of golden honey trail,

lead from your door to the street

a guide  for your unhappy one, to a happier and better future[15];

You will find someone even healthier and right for you next time.

As water seeks it’s own level.. There’s one better for him (or ‘her’), too[16]

Even if it looks messy-

it’s going to be all right.

*****

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But most beings come as drips from streams, reflecting the pipe from which they came from. Their effects disappearing into nourishing soil; or seem to disappear like drying pools on the beach[17].

Right or wrong, what we leave behind us, one cannot ever know. No one “forgets” how you made him or her feel (though it can fade to an echo)[18]

How we go through life,

with splash, ripple, or skip,

Like a butterfly’s wings beating-

Your actions alight.

Sometimes you wouldn’t want to know

The pain and anguish in your wake, or

See the darkness you created

By exercising your will untrammeled and without loving stewardship.

As ‘dark’ entity spirit, you’d ‘have’ to make it right[19].

Ever wishing to return to source- in its increasingly refined coherence

Is what our spirit wants and for that it must be whole.

And need to balance the polarities of pure energy eventually[20].

You’ll “return” to fulfill destiny,

just as sure as shit.

How that looks like, on the continuum

is relative and depends on what you do now.

(Make your amends. Do it now than later!

One way or another

We will become more perfect – in His eyes anyway.

Maybe not in body -though I can really say[21]mine feels better these days than it did ten years ago- even if I am softer and weaker. )

*****

Bodies get raggedy even as happiness lightens.

It creaks, crackles and crunches,

in my head neck and shoulders-

unless I remember to lift up myself;

But this body is much better with a little ballet – and singing

Thank goodness for the time being!

Anyway, that’s all I’m sharing,

On this perfect June day in the Springtime.

Inshallah, may we all be happy and thriving!

Mashallah Habibi, I’m in love with him. It was me all along projecting a wish for him!


[1]Our insights and intuitions are what we consider – con (with) sider (the stars).

[2]There must be at least 40 of them –4 Shekinahs, one in each direction. I wouldn’t want to meet them; they must be quite powerful. Heaven reflects them too.

[3]Accepting brain damage and deformity will limit the use of some versus other paths.

[4]Though meditation and drugs- anything causing a change in gating of signals; substances that effectively shuts down inhibitions and fear open up the ‘dream’ channel (probably some tiny inter- maybe intra-cortical connections that haven’t been discovered. I’m glad that Oregon is judiciously exploring the use of psychedilics in severely depressed people. They will be helpful.) I tripped when I was 13. Experienced from that, how I perception forms realities. 

[5]…and G-d willing, don’t have to! Wouldn’t it be easier(typical snake word) if we could just live like men with everything in order having a place for everything; the universe all named?   Wouldn’t it be nice if we agree to the same rules! But then we might turn brittle, blaming and bitter when things don’t work out so hot for us after all. Was what you built about control versus cultivating? 

[6]  Laws of duality, reciprocity, and ontogeny for starters- and yet the Golden Rule applied literally, is the same. 

[7]As a result, each culture has its particular gifts (and poison, Gift is the same word in German)- as seen from the outside others – from those who don’t have it; while you take yours for granted!

[8]Sitting up meditation with your tongue stuck to the roof of your mouth.

[9]Supine can help with surrendering; or be on your knees is like your amputating (your feet), and metaphor – your will expresses what you want by the community you keep and where you choose to go.

[10]Did you know, that gossip- naming, blaming or shaming, acts equally on the hologram of YOU- even if you’re just listening? All blessings and curses are recorded in your Akashic record – the hologram of self that weighs each breath, thought, and action experienced in life. This is what shapes and trains us into integrity and homeostasis. 

(at least make it look like it which is why, “fake it ‘til you make it” is a good first step).

[11]  How can that be “evil” to notice what’s going on? Noticing your breath and body sensations is central to yoga and monastic traditions; For the Catholic Church to say noticing your breath is “evil,” is pretty disingenuous, don’t you agree?

[12]With S,R, ,M,N T and all vowels- that covers quite a bit  of resonance patterns that might be missing from your diet–with (truth) serum, sermon or mountain are examples to consider. (O and U are what you make of it). 

[13]Re-silience return to silence and silliness. 

[14]We all have dirty laundry – do you wish to have yours aired too? 

Why cast the first stone? Even then, avoid the urge to retaliate. It only amplifies discontent and frustration.

[15]If you’re pleasant enough about it, your ex- might be even be good to you (at least fair)!  This can feel like self-destruction. But try to be objective; it could always be worse for you soemwhere!  

[16]Be assured, whatever imbalance is going on in you, is reciprocally out of resonance in them too. 

[17]Even then, did you know that your ‘water-being self’, what others feel, when they thinkabout you, joined an underground river that still moves with tides and eventually will resurface?

[18]Thank you Maya Angelou! (RIP- now there’s a lady with Pluto prominent with Cancer!)

[19]That would be your choice! Forgiving is how we lighten. White reflects all the colors of coherent rainbow of pure light not split by a prism.

[20]Simultaneity is part of our subconscious reality.

[21]With this “rapture” experience, my back pain is nearly abated. Replaced with a warm tingly feeling – most of the time – especially when I remember, I’m in the palm of His hand. 

I’m glad of that – my need to take a lotof meds for my back (and nerves) is much improved, at least for now.

2 thoughts on “Some souls come and make a huge splash,

  1. Thank you for posting. Your writings speak to my soul. Bring me much happiness in the times I feel like I’m a failure or at a complete loss.

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