My son’s sweet childhood friend is currently in the hospital – brain dead on life support. While his heart is beating and skin is warm, he’s in a suspended state of “feeling” with no discerning brain. Without that – his e-motions are gone. No passions can arise; he but receives from outside. You could think…… Continue reading Anatomy of a Fentanyl Overdose
Category: PTSD
Re-silience (“resilience”)
Re-silience (resilience) is a buzz word everyone likes to use – to describe kids and adults who are able to ‘bounce back” and re-buckle in, after seeing or hearing about traumas[1] and tragedy. Including me, I know lots of ‘resilient’ people, who look and act as if they are able to be ‘calm’ at their…… Continue reading Re-silience (“resilience”)
L.D. #13 THE END
I’m starting to be comfortable with telling ‘her’, my inner layer of mesoderm being- somatic body ruled by my heart’s subconscious, the story about my Love Daemon, never actually happened. Instead, L.D. 0,1 and 2 are a psych-otic[1] dream sequence I confused for reality. Sensations in my body (while I was dreaming) convinced my mind…… Continue reading L.D. #13 THE END
Wants
It is said we cannot excel at more than eight things at once – the octopus hasn’t ten arms. We have our foundational four of needs, and the other four we get to choose. At least to create a stable executive structure, which “8” is in Chinese numerology. It serves us to choose to focus…… Continue reading Wants
Peace
“Peace Now” “Give Peace a Chance!”, “Peace on Earth” without specifics, these declarations make me wince. They are so non-specific as “peace” can look like anything. Please consider[1]this. What bugs you anyway? That you might pick another’s cause distracts you (not that that’s bad, just different choice of focus). Peace, as I have experienced it in my…… Continue reading Peace
Becoming Author of Your Life
Many ‘magicians’ I know, meaning those who want to author[1], rather than footnote their life, often do the “the Middle Pillar Exercise[2]” to strengthen their resolve. This helps reaffirm our connections with Spirit and Earth. When you want to be a pillar in your ‘society’[3], then this is helpful to keep on the straight and…… Continue reading Becoming Author of Your Life
Million Dollar Baby
This morning I listened to a pediatrician and medical intensivist talk about the ethics of spending a couple of million dollars for one baby with a one-of-a kind (very rare) disease, in this case a neuromuscular disorder limiting normal breathing ability. These babies might receive a series of doses, some intrathecally, (meaning they stick a…… Continue reading Million Dollar Baby
Getting Ready
Getting ready The last time I went to see the actual man from whence the L.D. ensued, it wasn’t because I had to- like the other times[1]. This time I dressed up and went hoping to score.[2] For whatever reason I am feeling better; witness my regained ability to focus and concentrate. Some will say…… Continue reading Getting Ready
Peace
“Peace Now” “Give Peace a Chance!”, “Peace on Earth” without specifics, these declarations make me wince. They are so non-specific as “peace” can look like anything. Please consider[1]this. What bugs you anyway? That you might pick another’s cause distracts you (not that that’s bad, just different choice of focus). Peace, as I have experienced it in my…… Continue reading Peace
“Because I can”
“Because I can[1]…” There are many things I can’t fathom, nor would want to. The cruelty that people inflict on each other… for some momentary victory, that might leave a bunch of fallout, seems astounding. It’s like watching pigs rutting out in their pen, after eating their young. Why would someone purposely harm a child…… Continue reading “Because I can”